Secret #81.

You and me we're face to face, but we don't see eye to eye.

Heavy.

I love this song for everything it is. I dont know if I've gone mad or what but I use to dislike people who does a Christmas song about a break up or sad thing because Christmas is a joyful celebration and to turn something so joyful to sad, just make me feel uncomfortable at times. But this song is what I'm loving right now. Every bit of it.

"I'm of good cheer cause I've been checking my list the gifts you're receiving from me will be one awkward silence and two hopes you cry yourself to sleep. Don't come home for Christmas you're the last thing I wanna see underneath the tree. Merry Christmas, I could care less. Happy New Years, baby. You owe me the best gift I will ever ask for, don't call me up, when the snow comes down its the only thing I want this year."

Those words you read up there is what that made me feel slight better, I would say. I know that the words up there doesn't point out what Im trying to tell in the passages below it or maybe it does. Im not so sure but I think if you get my point you might understand or maybe not. Anyways, its been one hell of a tough month I would say.

Lovely and Endearing.

I am moving past this giving notice.

You Sent Me To The Brink

Can you lie next to her and confess your love as well as your folly?

But tell me now, where was my fault in loving you with my whole heart?

You desired my attention but denied my affections.

Oh, tell me now, where was my fault in loving you with my whole heart?

Not To Be Afraid.

I'm standing up, I'ma face my demons

I'm manning up, I'ma hold my ground

I've had enough, now I'm so fed up

Time to put my life back together right now!

It's a game called circle and I don't know how, I'm way too up to back down but I think I'm still tryin to figure this crap out. Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't, this fuckin black cloud still follows me around but it's time to exorcise these demons.

Secret #80.

Don’t tell me the sky is the limit, when there are footprints on the moon.

Sing-a-Longs and Lullabies.

Jack Johnson, its been four years and I still love you like I was 12.

Well if I was in your position

I'd put down all my ammunition

I'd wondered why'd it taken me so long B

ut Lord knows that I'm not you

And If I was I wouldn't be so cruel

Cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do

Sometimes life can be deceiving

I'll tell you one thing it's always better when we're together

I believe in memories

They look so, so pretty when I sleep

Hey now, and when I wake up,

You look so pretty sleeping next to me

But there is not enough time,

And there is no, no song I could sing

And there is no, combination of words I could say

But I will still tell you one thing

We're better together.

Where'd all the good people go?

I've been changing channels

I don't see them on the TV shows

Where'd all the good people go?

But you can't stop nothing

If you got no control

Of the thoughts in your mind

That you kept in, you know

You can't stop wishing

If you don't let go

The things that you find

And you lose and you know

I need this here

Old train to breakdown

Oh, please just

Let me please breakdown

Though you were lazy about it, you made me wait around

I was so crazy about you, I didn't mind

Guess that I was afraid that if you rolled away

You might not roll back my direction real soon

You played me boogie-woogie I played you love songs

Bitch Slut Psycho Babe.

I thought that everything was gonna be just fine. My friends tried to tell me to be strong.

T. Mills!

Make a bitch fall in love then Im on to the next 'cause one is not enough. One is not enough. Nah, one is not enough.

I Don't Need The Answer I Already Know.

DA DA DA DA BA BA BA BA

A Day to Remember!

Not Much of A Past Tense Lover.

SING SING SING SING SING SING SING SING SING LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM SING SING SING SING SING LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM THEM

Sense Been Made.

The more familiar two people become, the more the language they speak together departs from that of the ordinary, dictionary-defined discourse. Familiarity creates a new language, an in-house language of intimacy that carries reference to the story the two lovers are weaving together and that cannot be readily understood by others. -Alain de Botton, On Love.

White Fucking Lies!

And I feel like I'm breaking up and I wanted to stay.

I don't want you to hold me, I don't want you to pray.

This is bigger than us.

I'm so happy they have a new album coming out in 2011. Excited. 8DD

The Young International.

I used to pull all my tricks, I hope that you like this but you probably wont.

Swimming In The Darkest Sea.

People said after awhile you will come to a stage where you will accept things the way it is. I wont and never will accept the fact you are no longer here no matter who says. I wont accept that fact at all. I JUST WONT AND I JUST CANT. At random moments I just wish you will just call out of nowhere and start asking hows things and stuff like that. Like you were here all along.

It was so weird seeing your face on the paper and on top of your picture theres 1st anniversary. I felt so uncomfortable with that. And dad was like, " did you see the picture?" "how was it?" "nice or not?". I didnt answer him at all. I was just pissed off. Who the fuck in the right mind will ever ask that kinda of questions. Its not a fucking wedding invitation. I think he is the only man in the world who doesn't give a fuck about how people feels. I know these words I'm using is harsh but .. I dont care. I dont even know what Im doing.

I hope you're okay. I just wanna see you time to time but I cant. You dont do dream calls for me. And thats not fair. I ain't getting chocolate for the 1 year prayers we are going to have for you next month if you pop out in my dreams. I mean it. :P I love you alright. Just be around more often. That all i ask for. After all, you're the one I love the most. You're awesome, you know that? I really miss you. I just wanna spend time with you again. I dont even know when thats going to happen. Love you, Grandpa. Always did. You've been the best person in my life when it comes to family. You'll always be my hope. I need you more than the words can describe. You're very speacial to me. Be with me, okay? I dont know if you are but just be with me always. Dont leave me. No matter rain or sun, just dont leave me.

Rob Michelsen!

Gotta make you understand my master plan. I'm gonna practice my words, all my nouns and verbs. Anything I could do to get through to you. I'm gonna make you mine, no matter rain or shine. I won't be satisfied 'til I'm tongue tied with you.

My Positive Song.

Now all you rainbows after rain.

The sun will always come again.

Note : freaking cute bass player!! :DD

I’ll Say The Words.

I know if I faced her face, that she'll come to her senses.

Dialed her number and confessed to her I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing.

I wanted words but all I heard was nothing.

Forgiveness and Love.

I don't wanna change your mind cause I accept you for everything you are and will be. Stay here with me now. The only thing that our hearts are made of are the acts of forgiveness and love cause in the end no one loses or wins. I can't tell you what the future holds.

This song is so beautifully written. I just wow-ed when she sang it in AMA.

And Honesty, I Love You. :D

If I say you're the one, would you believe me?

It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change

and maybe i'm not ready but I will try for your love.

If I give you my heart would you just play the part or tell me it's the start of something beautiful.

I cant wait to talk to you. I miss you and stilling missing you so much. It feels like you're a million kezillion miles away from me and all I feel is distance and I hate distance. I just cant wait for you to come back so I will get to at least talk to you through via text. :D Quick, come back to me!

Please Know, I Am As Loyal As Loyalty Is When It’s Gave.

This is off of B.O.B upcoming mixtape, No Genre.

and Im crazy in love with this song. Its fun and I just love B.O.B!

my fav line in this song, "some-times-I-rhyme-like-I’m-inside-Einsteins-mind."

and also

"earthlings, or whatever human beings, I’mma beast your a feast, curly fries, onion rings."

and not forgetting

"these n-ggas get mad at me, talking all sideways with they eyes glazed they mad cause I’m straight."

Sing About Everyone That You Left Behind.

Alright, so most of you all already know that My Chemical Romance has a brand new studio album called, Danger Days: The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys. Check it out, buy the album.

The album's concept is based around the lives of the "Fabulous Killjoys". The band poses as the four Killjoys: "Party Poison" (Gerard Way), "Jet Star" (Ray Toro), "Fun Ghoul" (Frank Iero), and "Kobra Kid" (Mikey Way), shown in the video for "Na Na Na (Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na)". The Killjoys are a group of outlaws who are fighting against the evil corporation Better Living Industries (BL/ind.) led by Korse, in the year 2019. Their guide is pirate radio DJ Dr. Death Defying. A website for Better Living Idustries was launched in mid-november, betterlivingindustries.jp, featuring a mission statement, a report from the Zones and a merchandise store.

Heres the new music video,

Na Na Na.

Sing.

To Give Me All Your Love Is All I Ever Asked.

Bruno Mars's new single Grenade has so far peaked at number six in New Zealand, twenty in Canada, twenty-three in Australia, and thirty in the US.

http://www.mtvmusic.my/artist/bruno_mars/videos/599167/grenades_ this is the link to the music video. I cant seem to get the embed yet. Once I get it the video will be posted here. Thank you. :)

This is the Behind The Scenes of Grenade's music video.

Edited.

Secret #79.

It just really feels like everyone’s in a nice happy relationship. And while I feel like I’m not any closer to finding it, I’m growing increasingly impatient.

I'm Half As Good As It Gets.

Paramore has a new music video. Its called Playing God and currently I cant seems to get the embed for the video so, means I cant post the video here. But if you really wanna watch it like right now, all you have to do is go to www.Paramore.net and if you're a non-member there, please sign up because the video is only for members.

This music video is sick. Hayley is the evil person in it with her awesome pink hair. She looks so good and so are the boys. In this video, there is Hunter Lamb, the ex rhythm guitarist of Paramore and also Jeremy Davis's girlfriend, Kathryn Camsey. You can find her on twitter by searching @kittykatcam.

Edited.

thanks to FueledByRamen.

I'm Bad Habit.

Jesse McCartney's new music video called Shake.

One day she started texting me

Asking if she coulda borrow that recipe

I told her, loving you is my speciality

Counter Strike with PB&J. Special Edition!

So many people are asking me if I have any idea of getting married? ( isnt that a very early question for anyone to be asking me? )

Answer : NO, but maybe things will change has you know, when life happens. But at the age of SIXTEEN, im saying NO.

So, form four is over and I found out I was played by my classmates all year long. Chinese kids are so typical these days. But at least few of them are still the good ones. So, hopefully, i will survive next year. Overall, last day of school was great. Loads of laughter and hugging but sadly no kissing. :B But someone was so cranky on the last day, i felt so bad. I'm sorry, babe. :P

Form five is just a month away. Im really scared but at the same time I cant wait. Once done with school, I gotta stalk my favourite person in the whole wide world. Being in school sucks just for that one reason. Weeks and days without communication is so like im-stabbing-you-in-the-heart-every-second-feeling. ): Its depressing but at the same I try to make myself understand that she has a life and shes busy. Understanding is really important. I get along like that. Plus, I have a brother who goes to college too, so likely I know that the workload is alot and I shouldnt really be selfish. I will get my time to love all day long but now is just not it. Waiting sucks but at the same time waiting is worth while. ;)

I havent blog like this in awhile but I dont even know why Im doing it but I am doing it. :) Anyways, the best friend, Joey Yep, has started her blogging again. :') Click her name for the link to her blog.

Amazing how I get lucky with the humans I have in my life. Pumped up for Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows with the best friends and the best friend's boyfriend tomorrow.

Last Minutes with ODEN.

Last Minutes with ODEN from phos pictures on Vimeo.

)':

so heartbreaking.

Secret #78.

I’m happy for them, I really am, but words can’t express my jealousy.

Charlie Is So Cool Like!

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8) he is so cuteeee!

Watch The World Go By.

Like a hello always has goodbye, I need you

I don't think I'm asking too much to be with you

Like the sea needs the sand,

My hand is desperate for your hand.

Nobody said love was easy,

But nobody said it'd be this hard

I should have known from the beginning that missing you is the hardest thing to do.

You're scared of committing yourself

To the things that you so adore

It feels like you picked up a gun and pointed it at my chest

Pulled the trigger and laid my pitiful heart to rest

Charlie St. Cloud.

Im so going to cry like a baby when I watch this movie later. )':

Hmmmmm.

So random.

Its 3:15 AM.

One day you’ll get sick of

saying that everything’s alright

And by then I’m sure I’ll be pretending

Just like I am tonight

Please don’t get me wrong

Because I’ll never let this go

But I can’t find the words to tell you

I don’t want to be alone

But now I feel like I don’t know you

Let this go,

I will never let you go.

One Way.

" yes, but then I lost him "

i teared because just these words and its so heart breaking. ):

-

Life is good, and the girls are gorgeous
Suddenly the air smells much greener now
And I'm wandering around
With a half pack of cigarettes
Searching for the change that I've lost somehow.

Strong Statement!

Lights Out, Love.

Lighten up while you still can

Don’t even try to understand

Just find a place to make your stand

And take it easy

Whats Wrong With Me? I Dont Know.

Feel like the number one bastard alive in the world. Being so open to someone you love, to just let them in and let them see you at the worst of you and hoping that the worst of you will not make that person run away from you is scary because you are only hoping. You dont know for sure whats going to happen.

When you angry, you show it to them and the next hours you keep wondering if its over or not. Like, have I screw up. have I lost her. Is it gone? Is the feelings between us gone? You get insecure and you get so scared and you feel like you wanna hide under your bed like a small kid who is scared the monster is going to eat you. I never liked that.

I just love you and sometimes it drives me so insane I feel like no wanting to feel the love I have for you. But that thought only last a second cause I know that you are the only one I wanna love.

Just a Game, Sir.

im only human,yo.

to wash away what happen last.

Mama always said, dying was a part of life. I sure wish it wasn't.

High of the ground thinking of one then to three after jumping to a millon thoughts, this mind of mine is so messy. I like it how it tend to give me so much of thing to think about. Funny and amazing mind we humans have. :)

So, I finally watched Forrest Gump fully yesterday, Ah man, amazing movie. Stupid is as stupid does. :')

Thats all I got to say. Bye.

Original Song by Jenna Anne.

Can you write me one more line, and convince me well this time.

Cause I'm crumbling at the knees, your voice frames my defeat.

Can you turn that clock around, I can hear it's ticking sound.

The noises in my head, all the words she said.

She said wait here lovely, wait for me.

She said patience darling, patience please.

She said do not go, and don't be scared.

She said patience darling, I'll be there.

Sweet disguise with pretty eyes,

cut to me, I'm here impatiently.

Dressed to impress your case, last night has been erased.

Red icing on the cake, you spoke to me I ran away.

Ribbons wrap the deal, my mind says it's unreal.

But why did you ignore the best, and expect me to believe the rest.

So crawl into my bed, so I can read whats in your head.

My minds made just for you, but you may prove me wrong.

And I'm drawing up a blank, and I cannot find escape.

You're my left hand you're my right hand, you're all I understand.