Whats Wrong With Me? I Dont Know.

Feel like the number one bastard alive in the world. Being so open to someone you love, to just let them in and let them see you at the worst of you and hoping that the worst of you will not make that person run away from you is scary because you are only hoping. You dont know for sure whats going to happen.

When you angry, you show it to them and the next hours you keep wondering if its over or not. Like, have I screw up. have I lost her. Is it gone? Is the feelings between us gone? You get insecure and you get so scared and you feel like you wanna hide under your bed like a small kid who is scared the monster is going to eat you. I never liked that.

I just love you and sometimes it drives me so insane I feel like no wanting to feel the love I have for you. But that thought only last a second cause I know that you are the only one I wanna love.