My Bestfriends' Boyfriends.

Secret #50.

During our sales, I missed Shahrul and Fahrul.

It was a different situation. Very un-noisy.

Everything Here, Its You.

I want to be the picture on your wall

I want to chase you around until we fall

I want to be the one you write about

I want to be the one who never lets you down

Right now I feel like I'm

Losing control

Losing control

Hey, hey, hey, hey

My head is spinning cause of you

Hey, hey, hey, hey

You've no clue what you do

Your the storm, and the rain

You've got eyes like a hurricane

Hey, hey, hey, hey

You've no clue what you do to me

You've no clue what you do to me

I can make you laugh until you cry

I can tell your mood just by your eyes

I can sleep with your head on my cheek

And I could be the one you never want to leave

And we'll both fall, we'll lose it all

We'll have each other

And we won't make the same mistake

Cause we have had it together

And we're both smarter than before

We have been through the world

And we know that there is more

When you find the one that you're looking for

coming up posts : Faber Drive's album. We The Kings's album.

Secret #49.

I speak so eloquently that you won't have a chance to deny me.

Yawn!

Feeling fed up.

Why do I put myself in these situations?

I keep pushing myself even though I can't take it at all.

You're not worth putting myself in these situations.

You took it back beacuse you thought I'd make it work.

It never did but I meant to. I just give up.

If you trust me adjust me.

Find the words that will find these feelings.

I needed someone to talk to and you needed me to hold you.

If we're not friends what can we be?

I'm giving up it's not working out.

Let's Get Me A Fucking Mood Ring!

Something is wrong with me. No feeling myself. I'm sorry for this post.

Are you aware of what you make me feel, dear?

You weren't there when I was scared and I was so alone.

I'm starting to trip. I'm losing my grip.

Everything wasn't fucking okay.

You didn't know all the ways I loved you.

Now, there's just no fucking chance for you and me and there'll never be one.

You just messed up my mental health while I was quite unwell.

FUCK YOU! ASSHOLE!

I'm already feeling so faithless lost under the surface.

Everything that you thought I would be has fallen apart right in front of you.

Every step that I take is another mistake to you.

I wish I could find a way to disappear, I really do. I really really do.

Lately, I have the tendency of getting very physical.

Secret #48.

The blood that's running through her veins with every beat there's no escape. Lost in everything she trusts and still can't seem to get enough. Your heart of stone left her's breaking and her heart is weak her hands are shaking. Please, say you love me cause I don't know if I'll ever make this right. I am just so broken by the bitterness of loneliness and I'm so scared.

I'm hopeless but I'm ready to be amazed cause I'm standing here alone trying to make this life my own and nothing will keep this heart from beating. My heart is somewhere else and thats a pain I've never felt. Please, give me any reason to believe cause I swear I'm done here.

She is everywhere I go and everyone I see but these clouds won't leave. Take my heart as you're leaving because I don't need it anymore. I know that words aren't enough but you're better than this. Saving my heart for someone that's worth dying for. Saving my heart for someone who leaves me breathless. And thats YOU!

This is the memory and this is the curse of having too much time to think about it and it's killing me cause I know that I cant escape the past. This is reminding me that I can never bring you back.

She's in love and the world gets blurry. She makes mistakes and she's in no hurry to grow up cause grownups they don't understand her. She knows every word to the saddest songs and she sings along. She never listened to a word her daddy told her. She finds company with her cigarettes and feels alone when the sunset.

I want to keep her dreaming. It's my one wish. If luck is on my side tonight my clumsy tongue will make it right. She gave me every reason to believe I'd found the one but my doubts somehow they sold me out.

Now I'm wearing this smile that I don't believe in while inside I feel like screaming. My world's hanging by three words that I can't bear to say.

There Could Never Be A More Beautiful You!

Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine

Says she wants to look that way

But her hair isn't straight her body isn't fake

And she's always felt overweight

Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see

That beauty is within your heart

And you were made with such care your skin your body and your hair

Are perfect just the way they are

There could never be a more beautiful you

Don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through

You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do

So there could never be a more beautiful you

Little girl twenty-one the things that you've already done

Anything to get ahead

And you say you've got a man but he's got another plan

Only wants what you will do instead

Well little girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come

You starve yourself to play the part

But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true

And he'll treat you like the jewel you are

So turn around you're not too far

To back away be who you are

To change your path go another way

It's not too late you can be saved

If you feel depressed with past regrets

The shameful nights hope to forget

Can disappear they can all be washed away

By the one who's strong can right your wrongs

Can rid your fears dry all your tears

And change the way you look at this big world

He will take your dark distorted view

And with His light He will show you truth

And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl

My Head vs My Heart.

I've been staring at this page for the last 30min.

Thinking whats wrong with me.

Am I going to screw up my relationship with anyone.

Have I been treating you bad.

Gosh, so many things. In my head. I cant read it carefully.

Cant seem to understand myself lately.

Conclusion, I'm crushing pretty badly.

Too bad I fell for it and I walked along. Waiting for you to come along and please take my tortured heart by the hand and write me off. Do you know that when you go, I fall apart. Before I could ever let you go, gonna beg until I drive you mad and say something you could understand. I don't know if you feel the same but you gotta let me know cause I'm dying inside you know. I thought I knew it all but all I do is think about the next time I see you. This is something new and I wasn't prepared for it. Sometimes, I wonder where you are when you’re not with me. This feels so crazy. It’s a strange feeling to care about someone. I think I talk too much about you thats the definition of being out of control and I don’t wanna feel this anymore. I get this feeling inside my heart when you come around and when we’re apart then I feel so torn up inside, I guess I’ve gotta get control of my life.

Secret #47.

I'd show you how I feel without saying a word. I could wrap up both our hearts and I know it sounds absurd. The way that I feel tonight so down. Heart beats slowing pains are growing. Does she love you that's worth knowing?

I've gotta feel you in my bones again. I'm all over you and not over you. I wanna taste you one more time again.This life is way too short to get caught up in all this stuff when i just want you to love me back. Why can't you just love me back?

That Person Makes My Heart Go Haywire!

I blog with words for today.

Facebook is fucking boring. No joke. Twitter is not bad cause I get to spam whatever rubbish I want to spam about. Tumblr inspire me more each and everyday because of so many things. :)

So, Facebook gets 4.5 out of 10. Twitter gets 8 out of 10. And Tumblr gets 9 out of 10. But somehow, all of these social networks are super boring when you use it every single day. Like me. The only thing that never bores me is my iTunes. First week of holidays was pretty good. Brenda's b'day was a blast. Had so much of fun with Joey, Brenda and Chen Shen.

Well, obviously I'm not going to talk about what I've been doing during my holidays. Thats just another boring topic to talk about.

Alright, here are two cool country songs. The lyrics made me smile.

She's My Kind of Rain by Tim McGraw.

Whatever It Is by Zac Brown Band.

:) Bye!

Laying Around Feeling Dead.

The thing is, I really like saying yes. I like new things, projects, plans, getting people together and doing something, trying something, even when it’s corny or stupid. I am not good at saying no. And I do not get along with people who say no. When you die, and it really could be this afternoon, under the same bus wheels I’ll stick my head if need be, you will not be happy about having said no. You will be kicking your ass about all the no’s you’ve said. No to that opportunity, or no to that trip to Nova Scotia or no to that night out, or no to that project or no to that person who wants to be naked with you but you worry about what your friends will say. No is for wimps. No is for pussies. No is to live small and embittered, cherishing the opportunities you missed because they might have sent the wrong message. What matters is saying yes. — Dave Eggers, presented without comment and filed under “stuff to think about.”

But is there any comfort to be found? Man is in love and loves what vanishes, What more is there to say? — William Butler Yeats, “Nineteen Hundred and Nineteen”

It's Written Subconsciously.

Album's name To Lose My Life.

Death.

I love the feeling when we lift up watching the world so small below. I love the dreaming when I think of the safety in the clouds out my window. This fears got a hold on me. I can feel my heart beating as I speed from then sense of time catching up with me. The earth beneath my body shake and cast your sleeping hearts awake thats why everythings got to be love or death.

To Lose My Life.*

She said to lose my life or lose my love and that's the nightmare I've been running from. So, let me hold you in my arms a while. A desperate fear flows through my blood that our dead loves buried beneath the mud. She said…let's grow old together and die at the same time.

A Place To Hide.*

Could I sit alone and ask about my future? When you replied I'd just turn away cause I've been searching through my books to try and find some truth perhaps disguise is a mysterious way? If I made a promise could I stay by your side? Would you guarantee my safety? And say that I'b be alright? If judgement day started tonight at least I'd know I was right and I'd be laughing at the end of the world but take my hand tonight cause I think we'll be alright. I'm banging on your door so, come on and let me in. I could make a promise with a tear in my eye and all the hope in my heart but all the doubt in my mind.

Fifty On Our Foreheads.*

I know you're sad i'm leaving so, this may hurt a little but, girl look from your window late tonight. You think my heart is frozen while yours is slowly grieving. You'll see the boy you loved start burning in the sky. All we heard was lies about the truth. No choice but be obedient like prisoners of war caught on the wrong side of morality and youth. We thought about our loved ones.

Unfinished Business.*

Just give me a second, darling, to clear my head. The sand in the hourglass is running low and I came through thunder, the cold wind, the rain and the snow to find you awake by your windowsill. A sight for sore eyes and a view to kill. I shouted with passion, "I love you so much" but feeling my skin, it was cold to the touch. You whispered "where are you?" and I questioned your doubt but soon realised, you were talking to God now. You've got blood on your hands and I know it's mine. I just need more time so, get off your low and let's dance like we used to but there's a light in the distance waiting for me, I will wait for you. So, get off your low and let's kiss like we used to. I looked in the mirror but something was wrong. I saw you behind but my reflection was gone.

E.S.T.*

I always hoped that I'd learn how to fly. In my dreams, I'm there. You can tie my hands to the walls but you can't tie my dreams to this place. I might fall like a rock from your heart but you won't see me fall from grace. Fate always loses hope like electric sparks in my heart. I'm only going where you'll be some day so, don't say, "Rest In Peace" in your prayers.

From The Stars.*

Crossed his arms, gave a sigh and checked the time again, as he sat inches from the wife of the deceased. He catches raindrops on his window, it reminds him how he falls. He said "Driver, what's happened to these buildings? They all look run down and so alone."

Farewell To The Fairground.*

It's a dream that's going cold. Circus never dies, the act forever haunts these skies and I know we cannot stay. This place used to gleam, I see it in my hopeful dreams and now I had to get away. We move towards the stars and all that we touch becomes ours. Lets keep warm till it's day. We'll head south, just hold my hand now. I feel like i'm casting off my clothes and i'm running through the snow towards the sunset and i'm always with you.

Nothing To Give.*

You talked me to sleep last night. Your eyes like glass mistakes they moved me close to tears. I wish I could say that I've got no regrets but saying that would be one more to pile on my desk. I wish I could say I've clung to time like gold but as you said goodbye I almost died. I take it back, those promises I made to everyone. I'm falling through a ribbon last before I'd learn to run.

The Price Of Love.*

Kissed the crest of her lips and put his hands on her thighs. One million in a week or the girl gonna go. I won eight hundred thousand on a game show but it's not enough to win her back. I called at a quarter past nine and said I've done all I can. He said, you win some you loose some I feel bad for you man. She said, I loved you and pleaded for a hero to stay but knew deep inside that he'd planned it this way. I gave him my heart and now he's left it to die and I know I can't go back. He walks out the room and shouts, I'll see you around. He said there's no hope but babe you can wait for that dove.

It's to do with the kind of loss that goes with it, how it feels to lose someone; whether it be a parent, a son, a friend. I think anyone can really relate to this album.

It Doesn't Matter If The World Is Pulling You Down.

The album's name is Who I Am.

Rose Garden.

She was brought into this world out of a beatuiful mistake. She was young but not naive. Always wise beyond her years.

Who I Am.*

I want someone to love me for who I am. I want someone to need me, is that so bad? I wanna break all the madness but it's all I have. Nothing is right when you're gone. I'm frightened that I won't be strong. I'm shaking off all of the pain. You're breaking my heart once again.

Olive & An Arrow.*

She wants to be an eagle, when she's high she can fly no matter what she was trying. She'll be the perfect woman then she'll change suddenly and you wanna cry from the feeling. She leaves me breathless then she kicks me while I'm down. She leaves me hoping that my love won't show cause I know she'll give me an olive and an arrow. I'm just another photo that made its way on her page but somehow I stayed but it won't be long.

Conspiracy Theory.

Like it or leave it don't you make sound. Why we need to live in fear knowing that the threats are real. Better hit the road cause the world as we know is gonna fade away now.

In The End.

Baby, it hurts the most when you don't have a friend. You know you broke our trust and now you're stuck on the wrong side of the fence.

Last Time Around.*

You're standing there and I feel that connection. Don't forget about the fun that we had. I try to call but you don't ever answer. I'd let you go but you're all that I'm after.

Tonight.*

As the morning sun begins to rise, we're fading fast and we won't work this out. Every single word's been said and we broke each other's hearts again. Well, we know we're in love so let's keep it alive.

State Of Emergency.*

She's seductive and she does it well. I'm not a lover I'm still concern. When you touch the fire but your heart can still get burned. Satisfy yourself, but don't fool me. She'll tell you that she's leaving if you don't put your life on pause. She'll surprise you by letting you go. I know it's hard when life's unfair that doesn't mean you shouldn't care. Show me the way to reach your heart. Where do I start? See all those familiar faces crowded in my mind.

Vesper's Goodbye.

Somewhere I let all my defenses down and never thought to turn around and you do not make a sound. See it turning red like a bullet through the chest. Lay me down to rest. It's a lover's final breath. I found out nothing comes without a cost and life was just a game we lost. Now you're gone and nothing's ever felt so wrong. A moment seems to last so long. Now I die and kiss your tender lips goodbye.

Stronger. (Back On The Ground)*

Sometimes, something so right can be wrong. Feeling weak as gravity's taking its toll. I want to know you'll be with me when everything around is falling down and hen I finally get these feet back on the ground. You're making me stronger than I've ever been now.

I LOVE THIS ALBUM ! :D

Talented People.

Colourblin.

Directed and Edited by Eric Striffler.

32 Songs in 8 Minutes.

by Freddegredde.

Star Wars (John Williams Is The Man) medley.

by Corey Vidal.

Viva La Vida by Coldplay.

Violin cover by Eric Wuest.

Afterlife by Avenged Sevenfold.

Drum Cover by Cobus Potgieter.

Face Down by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.

Drum Cover by Cobus Potgieter.

Apologize by OneRepublic.

Piano Cover by David Sides.

What I've Done by Linkin Park.

Piano Cover by Adrian.

I Caught Myself by Paramore.

Acoustic Cover by Gary Lucas.

Tell Me Baby by The Red Hot Chili Peppers.

Cover by David ( bassist ), Fantin Moreno ( drummer), and relaxboi ( guitarist )

We're The Dreamer In The Beautiful Mess.

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