How Are We Going TO Deal With This?

Did you know when you're around my heart won't it can't slow down.

It beats so hard it makes it hard to catch my breath.
Every day's another first another change for me to fall in love with you and I do.
When you're with me I stop seeing any way to fail how do I explain.
I try to tell you what I'm feeling but how do I when all words fail.
You are just the addiction I've been waiting for.
You're the only thing I want cause you're everything I need.
Your whispers echo off the walls.
I'm getting into you because you got to me, in a way words can't describe.

You're essential to survive and I'm going to love you with my life.
I said, I love you and that's what I'm getting myself into.
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized.
I believe that we can make this into something that will last.
Has it ever crossed your mind, are we just friends or is there more?

by Mr.still wondering.

Two 'o clock and I wish that I was sleeping but I'm not cause you're in my head like a song on the radio. I was sitting here turning minutes into hours to find the nerve just to call you on the telephone but I never did get the never. I know we're friends but I'm secretly wishing for more but now since its written in my blog its no more secret. I guess I should say oops. (: You know, most of the time it's just my imagination to be with you cause I have no clue what you feel but if I see you stare just a little too long at me it makes me start to wonder. Yes, I know, call me crazy. I wish that you knew what you mean to me.

I know that my love for you is real. Its something really natural that I feel when you walk in the room and when you're near I can feel my heart skips a beat. Its like the whole world disappears and there's just you and me but I'm the one falling head over feet. I want to take a chance to ask you out but I'm afraid if I do I'll lose you. This is nerve-racking. The way you make me feel its like blah blah blah, no words. But I like it. Maybe hope will help. Maybe one day, we're gonna get there. I don't know if "maybe" happens or not but today, tomorrow, and as long as it takes I will stay true. Just know that I'll try never letting you down and I'll always hear you out. I know that you are someone I would love fighting for and I just want you by side.

There's gotta be a better way for me to say what's on my heart without leaving scars in you or me. I just need to find it. The perfect time. The perfect place. The perfect day. The perfect whatever is needed.

Here are some awesome pictures that I took from Tumblr. (:

All these pictures belongs to the rightful owner.
These pictures aren't MINE.

Secret #12.

I love my best friend, enough said.

Tumblr's A Quick Thought. Part 2.

I still wish that you would call. Not to do anything, just to talk. I miss hearing your voice every night, and I guess I just miss you making me smile.

Once in a lifetime, you meet a person who takes your breath away. Not because you want them to, but because they're meant to.

Sometimes I wish I could be like the white crayon in the box. That way, no one would ever use me.

The way you make me feel is unlike anything I’ve ever experienced before. You make me feel like I’m dying and flying and living and that my heart just stopped beating but yet is pumping ninety miles per hour all in one moment. - this is you. Y.O.U!

When people ask me what I see in you, I don’t know what to tell them because honestly I don’t know, but when I look into your eyes I see magic and it just makes me want to lose myself in your arms.

Let's set this record straight; no one makes me smile quite like you do.

Have you ever wanted to ask someone something, but you were too afraid of the answer?
- remind me of what i wanted to ask you on Feb 14 but i didn't.

I just want to know, and be honest; would you catch me if I fell for you?

If I had to tell you how much you mean to me, I would never get a chance to finish.

Here's to the kids whose 11:11PM wish was wasted on one person who will never be there for them. - i'm one of them.

I want something random, indescribable, beautiful, unexpected. I want to be caught off guard, and swept impossibly too high off my feet. - its you.

The hardest thing in life is letting go of what you thought was real.

I think the best and most precious things in life are: big warm hugs, passionate kisses, the smell of rain, daydreaming, walking through a field of wildflowers, smiles from anyone, particularly strangers, soft cushy pillows, anything chocolate, and lastly, being loved.

l hate it when so many people expect so much out of me. Then when I can't do everything as I'm expected to, everyone gets disappointed in me. It's just like, I'm not a super human. I can't do every single thing you guys expect me to do.

Don't make anyone your "everything," because once they're gone, you're left with nothing.

Everything is changing now; people are forgetting who they are, everyone wants to fit in and when they finally get the chance to, they leave the people they care about for the people that don't care about them.

And I wonder, when you see me, does your stomach jump to your throat and your heart drop to your gut? Because that's what happens when I see you.

There's always gonna be that one person, that no matter what they say or do, or how many times they hurt you, you're never gonna let them go. Because they mean that much to you.

It's not that I'm mad at you; it's just that I wished & hoped so hard that you could be the one thing that I could truly count on.

Not having a conversation with you for a day destroys my heart.

At night, it was like having an organ - my heart - literally ripped from my body... just because I miss you. All I could feel was cold and empty.

You know what your problem is? You have no idea how much you are worth. I'm serious, you don't know how much of a beautiful - inside and out - person you are. I mean, when I look at you, I shiver. And you can't even see it. - this goes to Mabel.

There are three types of people you'll meet. The one you should have never met, the one you should never have let go of, and the one you've been looking for your whole life.

And I know that we don't talk much anymore, & sometimes we even walk right by each other in the hall, without saying a word, or looking at each other, but then there's those times when our eyes meet & I realize, deep down, I miss you.

Sometimes, no matter how much faith we have, we lose people. But we never forget them. And sometimes, it's those memories that give us the faith to go on. - are you one of them? i hope not.

Now that you're gone, I don't have anyone else I can run to.

Tumblr's A Quick Thought. Part 1.

The funny thing is, nobody really ever knows how much anybody else is hurting. We could be standing next to someone who is completely broken, and we wouldn't even know.

I hate that time before you go to sleep at night because that's when all the thoughts you've been trying to avoid start to linger in your mind.

It's difficult, isn't it? Fighting for something you could've had, and then wondering if it's already maybe too late. - reminds me of someone i really love.

There's no limit to how long you can care for someone and no limit on how much. Especially when they have been such a huge part of your life for such a long time. - reminds me of my best friend.

I’m not going to spend my life chasing people. You wanna leave? Fine then, go ahead. 'Cause I’m done with chasing and caring for people who never had interest in me. Nothing lasts and people change. I’ve learned love is hard and life is strange. - i wish i could be more like this.

I'm so selfish and it's starting to show. I just can't let this one go.

Sticks and stones are hard on bones, aimed with angry art. Words can sting like anything but silence breaks the heart.

I've come to realize that you can't depend on other people to get what you want. You gotta gather up your nerve, throw yourself out there, and get what you desire. You gotta dream big and run after your goals, because no one is gonna do it for you.

I don't know what to do anymore. It's like everyday I fall deeper for you, and I start to have larger expectations. - this is happening to me and thats wrong ):

I know you are doubting yourself at the moment. I know you feel unsure and scared. I wish there was a way to make you understand you’ll get through this. I know you will. I believe in you.

Loving you may be wrong, but who said I wanted to be right? - love this.

All I really want is someone that's gonna keep their promises, listen to me babbling or enjoy a comfortable silence with, someone to call when I get scared, someone to laugh at my mistakes, and someone to grab me when I walk away. Is that too much to ask for?

Some people are worth fighting for, but you, you're worth dying for. -yes yes, for me you are.

One of the things I desire to hear more than anything else in the world is to be told, just once, that a friend wouldn't know what they would do without me. - will you tell me this?

Sometimes you need to cry it all out, break down, and just tear apart. Learn how to pick yourself up and put yourself back together. The only way to be happy is to give into sadness first. Because without sadness, there's no happiness; you would never learn how to smile.

If you have to try and convince yourself you don't care about someone, you care about them more than you think.

Doesn't it seem like when you're lonely, the rest of the world is in love with another human?

Sometimes, your closest friends end up hurting you more than your worst enemies would ever come close to.

I'm on the verge of of breaking down. The strength I have to hold myself together is slowly fading away. I just need somebody, somebody to lean on. I feel so alone and I hate it. Save me, please. - its me. its what i feel these days.

When times get rough between us, just remember I was the one who stayed by your side when everyone else turned against you.

You're the one that I stay up all night thinking about, coming up with cute things that I wish would happen, but never do.

She might look happy on the outside, but deep down, she just wants to drop down on her knees and cry all the tears she can possibly pour out.

Majority of the time, I keep things to myself. Not because I can't trust anyone, but because people nowadays just won't understand me. - i love this. i see me in this quote.

I push people away so I would know who's willing to pull me back in.

I thought I was done. But out of nowhere, memories popped up to take over my mind and kill my brain cells.

You know what I want? That someone who's gonna grab me when I walk away from them.

She says she's okay, but she's going insane. She says she feels good, but she's going through a lot of pain. She says its nothing, but it's really everything. She says she's fine, but she's really not.

Nothing sucks more than feeling all alone, no matter how many people are around.

At the end of the day, you can either focus on what's tearing you apart or what's holding you together.

You always said I had a hard time saying what's on my mind. Well, here it goes: I hate what you've done to me.

It's easy: push everyone away and you'll never get hurt. But it's not very effective. Someday, someone is gonna find a way in your life and you'd have to beg on your knees for them to stay.

Leaving someone behind means you only want the best for them, even if it means swallowing the sad reality that the best just isn't you. - is this what i'm doing to you?

In life, you don't get the people you want. You get the people you need; to teach you, to hurt you, to love you, to make you laugh. To make you exactly the person you should be.

You lied to me, let me down, turned this smile into a frown. And now you're the only reason why I find it hard to sleep at night. Feeling sad, feeling blue, I think of the past times spent with you. There's nothing left to say, so I'll just turn my head away.

I don't know what's right. I don't know what's wrong. All I know, is the pain that comes from waiting for you so long. - this is fuckin' true but i'm still doing it cause i want you. never give up, said joey.

Reblog From BlogSecret.

14751.) I really wish you'd say the words I want to hear.

I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I’m afraid to say anything because I’m afraid you’ll get freaked out. I start to tear up everytime I write something on tumblr about you, or think about it. I’m so unbelievably in love with you. Head over heels in love.

So I’m saying it to you here.

I love you babycakes. I want to be with you, seriously, forever. Please just give us that chance. Your perfect, and I want that part of you I lost back.

14893.) You just have no idea how much I want to be with you.

14630.) You are the best thing that's ever happened to me.

14627.) I don’t want to live without you in my life. As a friend, or girlfriend or best friend. I just want you there, I don’t think I can be the same that I am now without knowing you. I guess thats inevitably obvious. You make me laugh so easily, and I feel totally at ease with you. Even from the start, I did not hide or pretend to be anyone I’m not. For some reason I was totally honest with you. If you asked something, that was embarrassing to answer, I’d tell you the truth. Because I was scared if I said anything to hide it, it’ll change whatever we had going on. This really weird closeness.

14607.) It's been about 8 months. Ever since then, I've never gone a day without thinking of you. I miss you and I love you more than you can ever imagine.

Beginning With You And I.

I want to run away from home so I can live close to you.

I can't wait to text you tomorrow, or chat to you on msn, whichever, I'll be waiting patiently for.

You say you're fat. I know you aren’t skinny, but I love that you aren’t. You are so beautiful. I just want to hug you all the time.

Say.

I just wish we would stop all the bullshit. end all of our stubborn thoughts, and actually say what we mean. you won’t read this, and i probably won’t either, but here goes nothing. i am in love with you, and i have been for a long time. but i am afraid to wait for you this long. we both know that we can do it, you just have to trust me. you say you do, but it’s time to grab my hand and jump.

Tumblr Reblog : Since She Left.

Every girl has that one friend, you know the one. She’s usually not as good looking as your girlfriend, but she’s OK. She’s maybe a year younger, and she’s always calling your girlfriend. This girl is commonly known as your girlfriend’s Best Friend. And your girlfriend will tell her everything.

My girl, her bestie was named Stef, a self proclaimed “Jewess” (and when she said the word she always emphasized the Jeeeew) who never stopped talking, unless my lady was talking about me. Which was, you know- fine. I didn’t have anything to be ashamed about, but there was always something naggingly odd about their interactions. I often wondered if Krazy(we’ll call my girlfriend, Krazy to protect the innocent) was telling Stef a little too much about our personal life, and that somehow I was being left out of the loop.

I also thought that they were fooling around, or had in the past, which also unsettled me.

And you know, I didn’t care if she told her how big my dick was or how well it worked, or if I snore in my sleep, or how much she really wanted to marry me. What I wanted to know if Stef was getting to know the shit that I was really curious about.

Did she really mean it when she laughed at my jokes?

Did the songs and poetry I wrote really impress her?

Was she happy when she woke up in the morning next to me?

I guess, really I just never trusted her enough to believe her when, and if I asked these things myself, because I was — I am insecure about those stupid intangibles. And it led me to resent Stef, and ultimately Krazy. And soon enough, that was the end of that.

Darling, Please Spare Me, I'm Already Hurting.

What if I was good to you? What if you were good to me?

What if I could hold you 'til I feel you move inside of me?
What if it was paradise? And what if we were symphonies?
What if I gave all my life, to find some way to stand beside you?

-Rob Thomas.

Beauty queen of only eighteen,
She had some trouble with herself,
He was always there to help her,
She always belonged to someone else.

-Maroon 5.

Feelings, inside my head,
I don't know, but I'm thinking about you.
Understand that it's so hard to tell you, cause you already know.

-Relient K.

I could follow you to the beginning
Just to relive the start
And maybe then we'll remember to slow down
At all of our favorite parts.

-Paramore.

Maybe I'm your Mr. Right,
Baby, maybe I'm the one you like,
Maybe I'm a shot in the dark,
And you're the morning light,
Maybe this is sad but true,
Baby, maybe you've got nothing to lose,
You could be the best of me,
When i'm the worst for you.

-A Rocket To The Moon.

Reblog : The Lesbian Friendship-Fact Or Fiction?

Due to numerous events in my recent past I am beginning to believe that it is impossible to be “just friends” with another lesbian. Every time I have tried this approach it has failed miserably which is very unfortunate, as it leaves me with no gay friends to relate to. Don’t get me wrong. I love the friends I do have. But I just want to be able to talk to someone who understands on occasion.

Well, the first girl I was friends with put the moves on me, as they say. We were just chilling watching a movie and she suddenly leaned over and kissed me. I was shocked and confused, but I went with it. Why not right? Unfortunately it didn’t work out as a relationship, and then the possibility of friendship was ruined.

Second girl. I met her at a club. I know that’s not the best start to any friendship or relationship, but it happened. We started hanging out and she said she wasn’t looking for a relationship. She also detailed her history of having random NSA sex with girls. I just accepted it and began thinking of it as a cool new friendship. However, on occasion she would say things that just didn’t fit in with everything else. For instance, one day she called me and told me she wanted to come over and give me a massage. Entirely bizarre and out of nowhere in my opinion. Fortunately she called me back later and said she couldn’t come over because she wasn’t feeling sexy. After the phone call was over I just stared at my phone and went “Huh?”. What the hell did feeling sexy have to do with our friendship? Nothing. I think she was a little confused about what a friendship is. Or she wanted more. I’m not sure which. But eventually she found out I was looking to meet other girls and she suddenly stopped speaking to me. I never heard from her again.

Third girl. We were hanging out at a local gay bar and just having a few drinks with one of my guy friends. Unfortunately she and I both got a little more drunk than we had intended. But I wasn’t too concerned. Everything seemed pretty normal, and my guy friend was there and a lot less inebriated. So, at the end of the night when we parted ways I gave her a hug, which I see as very vanilla and friendy. However, as I attempted to leave she went in for a kiss. I backed away because I didn’t feel that way about her. It was very awkward. I talked to her a few more times, but I never saw her again. She moved back out west.

Fourth girl. This girl was actually non-labeled as opposed to being lesbian. She is more of the girl of my dreams type. We met online and I was thrilled. She was funny, extremely intelligent, and completely gorgeous. I was hooked from the start. So we started dating. It was very casual, but I always felt like it was leading to something more. However, after the second time we saw each other she had a bit of a life crisis. For various reasons (important reasons that I completely understand) she decided she needed a bit of space and time to herself to think about her life. However, it also seemed to kill the friendship to some degree. I haven’t seen her in…almost 2 months now. I understand someone’s need for space. I’ve been there before too. But I don’t understand not even being able to hang out every now and again. I don’t expect a relationship from her, as that would be unfair. But I would still like to be friends in this time while she works things out. But, she will do what she will, and I will try to get over it. She begged me to stick with her despite all of this, and I am trying.

Fifth girl. I also met her online. She claimed to simply want a friend, which I was down with. New friends are always fine by me. But now that things have cooled with girl #4 they seem to have picked up with #5. When #5 heard me talk about how things weren’t so great with the other girl, things started to change. At the end of one drunken night she went in for a kiss. I turned me head and got a kiss on the neck instead. I wasn’t ready to move on from girl #4 (I’m still not). The other day we hung out again. Somehow she ended up leaning on me between my legs as I sat on a stool. She was a bit toasted so I was fine with it. Some people just get touchy feely when drunk, which I totally understand. Though I was completely sober so it seemed a little odd. Anyways. At the end of the night I got another neck kiss. Ummmmm….no clue what that is about. I would like to believe that she gives everyone neck kisses. But I am having a hard time convincing myself of it.

And that is my entire history with girls. As a result I am beginning to see the lesbian friendship as a total myth. But maybe I am not only unlucky at love, but also at friendship. What do you think?

I don't know the name of the writer.

Bummer!

Guess what I do when I'm bored. YouTube! 8D

Living Lives: Coming Out in High School.


Love At The First Sight.


Vanilla Twilight by Owl City

Lyrics:
The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad, Cause the spaces between my fingers Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew, But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear, Oh darling I wish you were here.

Sweetest Girl by Wyclef Jean.
I love this video. (Y)


Unfinished Business by White Lies.

Lyrics:
Just give me a second darling
To clear my head
Just put down those scissors baby, on this single bed
The sand in the hourglass is running low
I came through thunder, the cold wind
The rain and the snow
To find you awake by your windowsill
A sight for sore eyes and a view to kill

I broke down in horror at you standing there
The glow from the moon
Shone through cracks in your hair.
I shouted with passion, "I love you so much"
But feeling my skin, it was cold to the touch.
You whispered "where are you?"
I questioned your doubt
But soon realized, you were talking to God now

You've got blood on your hands
And I know it's mine
I just need more time
So get off your low and let's dance like we used to
But there's a light in the distance
Waiting for me, I will wait for you
So get off your low and let's kiss like we used to

I looked in the mirror
But something was wrong.
I saw you behind but my reflection was gone.
There was smoke in the fireplace
As white as the snow.
A voice beckoned gently
'Now it's time to go'
A requiem played as you begged for forgiveness
"Don't touch me!" I screamed
"I've got unfinished business"

You've got blood on your hands
And I know it's mine
I just need more time
So get off your low and let's dance like we used to
But there's a light in the distance
Waiting for me, I will wait for you
So get off your low, and let's kiss like we used to

She Was Sweet As A Peach, In A Pineapple Way.

but I always try to hide what I feel inside.

Don't say a word; just come over and lie here with me, please.

With the crazy kind of feeling that I can't explain.
Don’t know where the hell I'm going,but, I'm going after you.

Ninety-five, ninety things left to say.

To be with you, there's nothing I wouldn't do.

I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe.

As night starts to set butterflies crawl in my stomach and never seem to go away. Then comes this awkward silence that so many like to break but this kind is different. It's the kind of silence that you don't mind having around. The kind that lets you know the person you love is just on the other side and you are just trying to screaming out to say I love you.

During the nights, you sit on the bed through out the whole night just wondering how is it that each and everytime your life seems on the verge of break down, the person you love makes everything better with the simple things and put a smile on your face without a sound? Just a minute spent with him/her and your whole world seems okay.

All those little things helps you through one more day and makes your life seem worth while. Sometimes, you feel its so magical happening to you. Dont you get this feeling as he/she comes to you with a casual flow, you get chills down to the bone.

p/s: I like my title. (:

"Best friends feed best friends food."
-Joey Yep.

This Is For Mabel Tho. ( :

Sometimes I feel like the world is against me but the sound of your voice, baby that's what saves me. When we're together I feel so invincible. If you listen to these words know that we are standing tall. I don't ever see the day that I won't catch you when you fall. Sometimes I feel I can’t keep it together then you hold me close and you make it better. When I’m with you I can feel so unbreakable.

-Westlife, Us Against The World.

I Remember The Days You Were A Hero In My Eyes.

"When you finally go back to your old hometown, you find it wasn't the old home you missed but your childhood"

Yeah, I'm going back 2moro. sigh. I really don't want to go. I'm still not accepting the fact that when I reach there, no one will come out from the house to give me a big smile and a warm hug. I'm still not accepting the fact that the house will be empty. I still cant accept the fact that my grandpa picture will be hanging on the wall. I don't want to go and get hunted by the memories that I don't wanna think of.

The house I grew up in, is now empty. No grandma to cook for me and to ask hows my studies. No grandpa to take me to the town and buy me things I want. I don't wanna sit in that house with all my regrets killing me. I'm afraid to see things I don't want too. My grandpa doesn't even know what I got for PMR when he was the one told me to call him 1st to let him know. Everything I wished for is gone. Whats the point of going back if its only going kill me abit by abit.

I cant believe that hes gone. I cant believe all this is really happening now when I thought it will happen when I'm way older. I cant believe that when someone ask me about my grandparents, I say I don't have ANY grandparents. A year ago, I was only left with one and only grandpa and now his taken away. I hope my mum will understand why I don't wanna go there anymore. I really hope she will understand someday.

Those out there, those who still have their grandparents, I tell you this, keep them happy. Enjoy every moment you have with them. Please don't have regrets when they are gone. It will hurt you badly. I promise you cause that's what I'm going through now. And it hurts so bad that I feel like killing myself. Not a day goes by I dont think of it. Please, take care of your love ones.

To Write Love on Her Arms.

Heavy And Light.


Purpose for the Pain
by Renee Yohe.


Stop The Bleeding.

I want this t-shirt

and this wristband.

Cross Your Toes And Swear To Your Nose.

This babe is officially 18th.
She is THE person who completes me.
6 years of awesome friendship.
shes my sayang.

Happy Birthday, Mabel. I cant believe you are eighteen already. Time files. Anyways, I don't know what to get you la, sayang. And I still have last year present to give to give you but, I'm sure I'll get you something you really love this year. But, for now, I'll do a blog post just for you. I know this is not what you wanted and I know you wanted me in dress but I'm sure thats not going to happen. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not getting you what you want. I know I suck. But, I just hate getting into a dress. I'm sorry. I'm very very sorry, babe. ):

Sayang, I just want you to know that every moment I have spent with you, every moment that I will spent with you is the moment I'll treasure the most. And I thank you for always being there for me. For always making me smile through msn. For always telling everything will okay. For being by my side when I was feeling so low. For everything you have done for me. I have too much to thank you for. I love you, babe.

If my heart was shattered, you'd heal it. If my heart was happy, we both rejoiced in it. You hold my hand when I am weak, and vulnerable at times. And as you smile I cannot help but turn my lips upward and duplicate the joy. When I am sad or unsure, you make me laugh like no one else can. It makes me want to be closer to you all the time. Even when I am happy and content, you are there for me. You always chased all my doubts away.

Look what my sayang is wearing.
yes, that's right. CONVERSE!

Just in case I should happen to tumble or fall and as you laugh your sound carries across the room and it makes me want to be a better person. As we go along together, I realize how lucky I am to be sharing my life with someone as special as you. You are my everything; my comfort, my weakness, my joy. If I didn't have you, what would I be? I wonder.

I've been thanking God everyday for sending someone like you to care and comfort me in times of need and to be my wonderful guardian angel. For this I thank you and hope you will stay in my heart. FOREVER. Okay, I know forever is overrated and theres no such thing as forever but I want you to stay until I'm alive. I dont want to use "People Always Leave" on you. I never want to use that. Never ever.

I've always consider you as my childhood friend. And I have to thank Kelsey Wong for bring us together. Sometimes we would argue and fight and other times we would laugh and stay up all night. (the best days of my life) My thoughts and feelings, to you I would confide, never having anything to hide. Somethings changes and somethings stays the same. To me, I'll still listen to you and share with you. I'll always care for you and I'll always love you.

Today, tomorrow, and always I will stay true, i promise you. I'm just too young to know, but I'm sure heart and soul that I'm never letting you go. You make the angels sing. You make everything better. I'll never let you down. I'll always hear you out. You make my knees go weak and I just want you by side. I like knowing that made you happy.

Mable Tho, I'm addicted to you like a drug. I cant go one day without chatting with you. You are addictive. I think you know that it's true I'd run a thousand miles to get you. You can take me to the place that I call home. My love for you continues to grow with each passing day. Just know, no matter where I go or the distance in between I’ll always be here for you. You can always count on me, sayang. You know I’ll always be by your side. Just take my hand and hold it tight. I will protect you from all around you. My arms will hold you, keep you safe and warm. This bond between us can't be broken.

p/s : I know my post is not oh-so-great and all but I tried my best. I hope you like it, sayang. I promise I'll make it up to you after Chinese New Year.

meloveyou.mewanthugyou.mewishyouhappybirthday.

This Memory Fades.

loving too much is risky
too much possesion
too much selfishness
too much insecurity
too much misunderstandings
its very stressing
they need time off each other
to understand that
sometimes they need their time alone
with friends too chill
24/7 with partners can be very frustrating
unless both party needs the same
otherwise its a win lose situation'
someone will get hurt
and when someone gets hurt, someone else gets hurt too

by Mabel Tho.

Secret #11.

Your smile takes my breath away and leaves me with nothing to say.
You aren't like any other girl that I've met in this whole world.
You're so much more than they can be.
So won't you please just be with me?

Darling, Please Believe Me,I Want You And You Just Have To Know.

I was actually doing my homework but I just felt like I needed to blog. So, I was listening to Sadie Hawkins Dance by Relient K and I was thinking if only Malaysia had Sadie Hawkins Dance. Wait, you don't know what is a Sadie Hawkins Dance, do you? Hahaha. And if you do than its good.

Sadie Hawkins Dance is usually a less formal dance sponsored by a high school, middle school or college, in which female students invite male students. This is contrary to the usual custom of male students inviting females to school dances such as Prom, in the spring and Homecoming, in the fall.

Yes, that is Sadie Hawkins Dance. Its amazing. I like it because its less formal and female students invite male students. Something cool and different. I have no idea why am I talking about dance when I dislike wearing dress.

Sadie Hawkins Dance by Relient K
Its not the official video but this video is so adorable.

Have you all heard of the band called Parachute. You know, the band that sang She is Love. Alright, I'll post a picture of the band for those who don't know the band. And if you do know the band, check out their song called Blame It On Me and I Belong to You on Youtube before you download it. Their songs are really nice.

Parachute!


She Is Love by Parachute.


Under Control by Parachute.


The Mess I Made by Parachute.

I love the videos. I love whoever the director is. And I love whoever the cameraman is. I also love whoever the director of photography is. So fucking amazing. I'm so in love with the videos. Btw, I find the band's bassist not so sexy or hot but the leader singer is not hot and has a sexy vocals. I love his eyes. :P Yes, yes, I'm a sucker for guys with blue eyes. Like Teddy Geiger.

p/s: Under Control is my most favorite video but I love the other two too.

Will Anderson!

Alright, I blogged about music. Finally. I cant wait to get my hands on DSLR3000 Nikon. My dad is fooling me around saying before CNY. If I don't get it before CNY, I'm going to lose my mind. Like seriously, I'll lose my mind. Its really funny how people didn't know what is photography is about but now everyone wants to be a photographer. I'm really inserted getting myself involve with director of photography.

So, anyways, school is okay. I don't like blogging about school. Valentine's Day is here. I meant around the corner. This will be my 16th Valentine. I've been single for 16 years and I like that. But still I want this person to be my Valentine. I know I'm addicted to this special person. Heee. :D Let me tell you about my dream. How I want my Valentine's Day to be. This is MY DREAM. Just a dream. Nothing more.

- Wake you up with a kiss.
- Make you breakfast in bed.
- Sing you a love song that I wrote just for you.
- Watch a movie that you love the most at home.
- Take you out for lunch. Drive you around.
- Take pictures of you. Your smile. Your laugh.
- For dinner, a picnic with candlelight at the beach.
- Slow dance with no music or you sing.
- Go to bed with you. I want to hold you through the night.

p/s: Go to bed means just sleeping. Not having sex. This is for the perverted minds out there reading my blog.

Thats my dream. It might come true someday.
Alright, time to go to bed says my mummy.

Maybe Part Of Loving Is Learning To Let Go.

I've seen love die way too many times when it deserved to be alive.
You do your best to show me love but you don't know what love is.

Secret #10.

She makes my world fall down with her every word she blows me away.