Well, I went to school today. It end up not being boring as much as I thought it would be. Everyone was shocked and they kept asking me what happened to you for so long? Oh well people, its after PMR and school doesn't seem to be interesting anymore. Anyways, the first person I saw after the whole week not going to school was BRENDA CHIN! Oh god, that girl knows how to keep me smiling. I just love her. Today was also the the last days of exams for all the forms. Well, they are free at last.
The Veronicas are like drugs to me. Whenever I hear their song I get so damn addicted to them. Like Jesse McCartney's songs. I can go so crazy over both of them with one song. Just one song. I really need to get The Veronicas albums. By the way, I have to go back to Penang with my mum and dad. =/ I dont want to goooo! No point. Cant do anything now. Anyways, I got to go now.
P/S: Jazz offered me a job on Tuesday.
Goodbye now. Thanks for reading. (:
"when you were ten, you said you'd make me your wife."
Wanna know why I'm blogging early today? That's because I got school tomorrow. Ever since PMR finish I never been to school. Yeah, its almost 2 weeks that I never been to school. So, I have finish watching Lipstick Jungle Season 2.
Seriously, I'm really bummed. I feel like noone cares anymore. Friends are no more friends that I knew. Everyone are so different. Its hard to accept that people whom I loved are now no longer that same person. Life is never easy. I cant believe things happens so fast. One minute you are laughing with them and the next minute, its like everything that was there is gone. I don't like it. I mean noone likes this. Its hard to handle things that keep falling apart in my fucked up life and I have to rebuild again and its never easy to do that. I been doing this shit since I was 13. Even I have changed. I promise to myself that I wont changed when I was 11 and look at me now. I dislike myself.
Everyday thinking of what can happen in my life. Thinking who I will lose and wondering what to do in life. I wanted to go with the flow and I don't seem to be doing that. I'm tried of all this crap.
This is your life, are you who you want to be? When the world was younger and you had everything to lose. Can somebody save me? I can see that you're uneasy and it's not gonna change. When I fall to the floor I can't feel anymore. Loneliness and pain is what I feel these days. Every stone’s been turned around. My beginning had already begun and now I have to run. There's nothing left here anymore and it's making me insane.
When I lose myself I think of you but you are no more with me. Why can't we make this darkness feel like home? One day, I get up and somebody tells me where to go to. When I get there everybody's telling me what to do. When it hurts you, scream it out loud. Noone knows how I feel. The day was dark and full of pain. Hope is all I've got.
I open up my eyes but nothings changed. My life is meaningless. It's so hard to get along with empty hands. The world makes me confuse and my sense seem to lose.
Should I even care that she didn't say anything.Tried to do my best by giving her things.I wanted her to stay awhile don't go home away. You gotta give a little but it takes a lot to get over you cause it makes no sense to be permanent if I can't feel, right? It's a terrible thing to know what you want and know you can't have it at all.
-Forever The Sickest Kids.
Did you ever get the feeling that you've been cheated? Don't believe a word, just keep on breathing cause this moment will pass and then we can all get high. You got some insane confidence. Hope we don't get fooled again. All sensation makes no sense. -Third Eye Blind.
Despite the lies that you're making, your love is mine for the taking. My love is just waiting to turn your tears to roses. I will be the one that's gonna hold you. I will be the one that you run to. I will be the one that's gonna find you. I will be the one that's gonna guide you. I'll light the night with stars. -Skillet.
Its 3:04am.
Yesterday was pretty boring. Didn't do much. I woke up at 12.30pm but i didn't get off my bed till my mum came back which is around at 2 something pm. That was my first time to stay in bed that long. Its an official RECORD in my book. I really have nothing much to type in my lame little blog. Its like nothing happens in my life. All I do is watch tv shows, watch youtube videos, searching new music, reading true online stories and chatting. What kind of life is this? Sometimes, I get so pissed cause I'm wasting my life and sometimes, when I think about I feel that is not my fault but actually, it is my fault. What I'm saying is not making sense right?
to be continue tomorrow.
Its 11.26am. I didn't finish blogging because I got busy. A friend called and we talked till 5am and I heard alot of things about me that has been rumoring around in school. I guess, I'm not the only one that has no life. Oh well, what can I say. By the way, I'm sorry I said something that I didn't mean. Calling you a bitch is just not right. I'm going to go with WHORE! I don't even speak to you and you bitch about me? Seriously, what the fuck,women. What did I do to you? Just because your sister/brother knows my brother doesn't mean you know me,whore. Unbelievable. People these days watch too much of drama on television.
I have a friend in Penang. I mean we been friends since I was 4. He use to come to my house and we use the play alot. He is older than me by 1 year and he still living Penang. After so many years of going back, I only saw him this year during an open house in my relative place. The sweet part is, he still remember me. I mean he still knows my name. Our conversation when like this.
"Hey,Priya. Remember me?" "erm, nope I dont. You are?" "You forgot me? I'm Jay."
And then only I could remember him. God, I feel like a stupid person, when he asked him that. We end up talking till I didnt want to go back. We also exchange number and I dont know why but when I told him my number, he laugh at me. He is a funny guy. It was nice to see someone who knows me since I was 4. It was great meeting him agian. We promise to meet agian next year. I still cant beilve he knows me after 10 years. A decade and he still knows me.
I'm going to finsih my Lipstick Jungle Season2 now. Goodbye. (:
Yesterday, I skipped school again and went over to Joey's around 3pm something. Had alot of fun. Too much of laughter with Jamie and Joanne. As I planned not going for All American Rejects and this happened. My mum and dad might have to go down to Penang because of my grandpa and I don't plan going cause I have my reason and if I don't go I need a place to stay. Maybe, I have to go for AAR after all. Oh well, lets just wait for the REAL plan from my mum.
I'm really tired of everything. Nothing much have been happening in my life because I skip school and its already a week and one day and I don't go out often. I feel so lost sometimes and sometimes its like this is where I belong. I cant seem to decide what the fuck I want. 3 years of my life has been nothing but empty. I keep re-doing the same thing. High School has change my life alot and thats not a good thing. But, no knows because I keep my thoughts to myself. Most of the time i'm a loner and my best friends dont know that cause I dont tell them how I feel. As much i love being around people those people seem to hate me. I'm really a flop in this.
will edit later cause i'm watching Lipstick Jungle.
Its 2.09am and I just finished Lipstick Jungle Season 1.
Lipstick Jungle is a dramedy that follows the professional and personal lives of three best friends, all of whom are top professionals in their respective careers. Victory Ford is a fashion designer, Nico Reilly is the editor-in-chief of Bonfire Magazine, and Wendy Healy is the former president of Parador Pictures and is now producing independently. These three powerful women are always there to support one another and navigate the crazy, romantic, and sometimes scary world that is New York City.
Lindsay Price as Victory Ford. I love her the most. She is really funny.
Robert Buckley as Kirby Atwood.
He is super hot. :D
Nico: Do you know how old I am? Are you looking for a job? Kirby: You're sexy.
Nico: You are not a loser. You are an extraordinary person. You are funny. You are scary smart and intense and gorgeous and larger than life. You deserve to be loved because of those things not in spite of them.
Shane: When I'm here with you and it's just us and the kids I never feel like I nothing. It's just everything changes when I walk out the door.
Victory [to Wendy]: But you can't wear green, you look like Shrek. Put it down.
Victory: Now I look like this needy person that always needs to be saved. Joe: What makes you think I'm saving you?
[about Joe Bennett] Nico: Are you required to use his full name in bed? Victory: [no response] Nico: Oh my god, she had to think about it.
Victory [to Joe Bennett]: What do you mean done? You didn't unclog my toilet, you met my best friends.
I'm starting of with Season2 tomorrow. Its going to be interesting. Okay, its time to hit the bed. I will blog tomorrow.
Goodbye and Goodnight.
"It seems that i cant say of all the things that i have done wrong"
Its 12:25pm and I have nothing better to do but blog.
So, I have watched 4 movies and finished One Tree Hill Season6 and I also have finish reading New Moon and my South To Nowhere Season2 is taking forever to download. I need to thank my brother for his kind heart to help me download Degrassi : The Next Generation from Season 1 til 8 which will take about a couple of weeks. So, right now, I have nothing to do cause I don't know how to entertain myself. I really suck at that.
Before I continue, check out the movies i have watched. (:
Finally, I have watched this movie. Its really a mind blowing movie. You have to love Michael Bay for directing. Shia LaBeouf,Megan Fox and Josh Duhamel, got to admit that they are so freaking HOT! :D Speaking of Transformers, I really want the comic book. Oh, by the way, this goes out for Dhaniah. I watched it, Dhaniah. :D heee. One more thing, cars have feelings.
Optimus Prime: Fate rarely calls upon us at a moment of our choosing.
Sam Witwicky: Bee, if you hate me I understand. I messed up. I'm sorry.
Bumblebee: You are the person I care for most in my life, and if there is anything you need I won't be far away.
Mikaela Banes: Here we are in the middle of the desert, with the stars above us, and you still can't tell me you love me.
I will just rate it, 8/10.
Its was funny plus Gerard was in it. :D
Rating it 9/10.
Sandra Bullock & Ryan Reynolds make a great team.
9/10.
Rachele Brooke Smith has freaking awesome abs and Cody Longo is freaking hot and so is Holland Roden.
100/10.
for everything.
Nathan: I scored 35 points that night and each basket was like my own personal version of a Haley James pick-up line.
Haley: It worked.
Nathan: I played that game for you, Haley and you know what? I'd give it up for you too. Because as much as I love playing the game and the person that I am when I play it, I love being a husband and a father more.
Peyton [to Brooke]: Life's too short Brooke, to fight, to be miserable....... to let the bitter ones change how awesome you are.
Peyton: Maybe the whole point of you and me, and every single moment we’ve shared together has just been leading us here. Maybe you and I are meant to create THIS life, because maybe this life is gonna change the world.
Lucas: I can’t accept that our story doesn’t have a good ending.
Peyton: Our story already has the greatest ending no matter what… cuz we’re together.
Julian: I told her I loved her and she didn’t say it back. But the movie is over, so it doesn’t matter.
Sam: Yes it does. It’s the only thing that matters.
Dixon: Sometimes the beauty is in the attempt. We gave it everything we could, but it just didn’t work out.
Haley: What’s the first thing I taught you about writing?
Sam: Tell the truth.
Haley: [to her students as she exits the classroom] You’re all too young to start playing the game. I’m too young to start playing the game. Stand up for what you believe in.
Sam [to Brooke]: I know to follow my heart instead of locking it away.
Mia: Good kissing inspires good music.
Mia: Did you know Chase lost his virginity to Brooke?
Haley: Hahaha yes, but I’m guessing from your look you didn’t. Welcome to Tree Hill. I challenge you to find someone that didn’t lose their virginity to Brooke Davis.
Lucas: I’m gonna miss you.
Peyton: You better cuz I have a lot of dreams wrapped up in you.
Peyton: My best friend - okay this one is so important; choose wisely, I got really lucky with mine. My best friend is funny, intelligent, creative, beautiful, and successful, and very kind. She’s also impulsive, frustrating, um complicated, childish, but I would not have her any other way. And the best part about Brooke Davis is that she always puts friends first. So if you are ever in any kind of trouble, you know who to call. I can’t think of anyone I’d rather have watching over you.
Lucas: Peyton wants to get married. Right away.
Nathan: You gotta realize, if you had one day left with Peyton, would you want to spend it arguing, or just being married?
Jamie: You’re kind of my Uncle Keith, aren’t you? Lucas: I like to think that I’m just like him.
Jamie [to Lucas]: Your whole life’s in that box, I wish I had one.
Brooke: You’ll always be a Davis to me.
Sam: You’ll always be my first mom.
Lucas: There’s still one thing missing.
Peyton:What’s that?
Lucas: Our wedding photo.
Peyton: Really? Can we get married right away?
Lucas: Sure, only if the doctor says it’s okay. It’s not cuz of the baby or our situation or any damn thing. I want you to be my wife because I love you. I love you no matter. Peyton: I love you too.
Haley [to Nathan]: I love you and your son loves you and nothing that happens in the next hour is gonna change that.
Nathan: It's been a good life, huh?
Haley: It's been a wonderful life.
Mouth: Take a look at yourself in a mirror who do you see looking back?
Haley: Is it the person you want to be?
Dan: Or is there someone else you were meant to be the person you were meant to be but fell short of?
Mia: Is someone telling you you can't or won't? Because you can.
Chase: Believe that love is out there.
Nathan: Believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.
Peyton: Sometimes happiness doesn't come from money or fame or power. Sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family and the quiet nobility of leading a good life.
Julian: Believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.
Brooke: Believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.
Peyton: So take a look in that mirror and remind yourself to be happy because you deserve to be. Believe that.
Lucas: And believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.
Brooke: You told me that someday I'd be ready to let someone in. I think today might be someday.
Julian: If this was a movie, you'd kiss me right now.
Brooke: No, I'd say I love you, and then I'd kiss you. I love you.
Lucas: You know, I'm in a little...I'm in a little over my head here. I took her home and I'm doing what I can, but she needs here Mom. I need here Mom. She doesn't even have a name. We were supposed to do that together. I can't do this without you. And I'm just afraid that I'm gonna lose you and it's just gonna be the two of us. And she doesn't even have a name.
Peyton: Sawyer. Okay? Sawyer's her name.
Lucas: Sawyer Scott, okay. God you scared me.
Victoria: Are you finished?
Julian: No, not yet. I love your daughter. I'm in love with her. And one of these days she's gonna love me back and when she does I want you to understand something: you're either gonna learn to be nice to her, or you're not gonna be in her life. Nice to meet you Victoria. Feels like I've known you all my life.
Lucas: Peyton, I've loved you since the first time i saw you. And this ring and these words are just simply a way to show the rest of the world what has been in my heart for as long as I've known you. I love you, Peyton Elizabeth Sawyer. I always have and I always will.
Peyton: Lucas Scott. We've been through so much together. And despite how confused I've been or lost I might have gotten there was always you. Finding me and saving me. You deserve to be adored so that's what we're gonna do, your baby and me. We are going to adore you for years to come. I am so terribly in love with you. And I always will be.
Haley: I believe in true love. I believe in love at first sight. I believe love conquers all. And that doesn't mean there's not gonna be hard days or difficult things to deal with, because there will be. But finding that person who does it for you and knowing that person loves you back it just makes everything so much easier. "Peyton Sawyer will become Peyton Scott." That was the dream. And here we are 10 years later and we all get to witness today a dream come true.
Haley: I'm sorry.
Nathan: Aww, are you kidding me? My girl is a badass. That's hot.
Brooke: 1 out of every 500 people gets assaulted or raped. There were over 30,000 aggravated assaults in our state alone last year. 7,000 robberies, 3,000 murders, 600 rapes. It's official, life sucks and then you die.
Samantha: [voice over] Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would your world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There's nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the Ocean. It's deep and Dark and bigger than all of us. And pain is like a thief in the night. Quiet. Persistent. Unfair. Diminished by time and faith and love. I didn't know Quentin Fields but I'm jealous of him because I see how his absence has affected the people that did know him so I know that he did matter to them. And I know he was loved. People say Quentin Fields was a great basketball player. Graceful. Fluid. Inspiring. They say on a good night it almost seemed as though he could fly. And now he can.
I miss basketball. Anyways, its 1.27am and i just got back from a party.
Party was awesome. But, you came into my mind around 12.30am, like always, you drive me crazy. Now,you wont even reply. I feel so good. Thanks. Joey and Brenda was there. And I also have made up my mind not going for AAR. So, i have one ticket which I'm selling. Who want it come find me.
You cant play me like that, it hurts. Someday you'll get it why i love you. Than one day, you'll regret it for not taking me in to your heart, your messed up little heart.
There's a girl back home I use to know who cries herself to sleep every night. She had no place to go. She had noone to catch her when she was falling cause she pushed them aside. Every night, she wished that she had tried telling her friend the truth. If she could turn back time she find a way to remind you what she going through, friend. She feels so sorry that she is fading away. She just has no idea what to do. She is all messed up and fucked up. She is worried.
Anyways, I have just deleted my twitter page and its not just because Miley Cyrus deleted her twitter. I also have deactivated my Facebook account. The reason I did these two things its because I don't know what was happening to me. I was always emo-ing and posting emo statement and I just realized that's just so stupid. Well, actually, that's not the only reason. Been acting so stupid lately. I have been losing so much of my time.
I'm having a empty mind now. Maybe 2moro, I will have alot more to blog about.
Yes, its late and everyone is sleeping. So, I'm still thinking weather to go for AAR or not since I've been having second thoughts. That's one and the second is my sweet loving world/life is collapsing. Yes, all over again. Should I run or just stay till someone can save me. I'll pick run because I don't seem to be trusting people who say they can save me. What will you say? Anyways, that's my problem to deal with not my readers.
Yes, I'm a really confusing person. So, I got a call today. Her name was my first best friend's name. youknowwhoyouare. But, it wasn't my best friend, it was just a wrong number. Same name only not the same person. I miss my two friends alot. I think I need a day out with Jazz and Jean. I miss arguing with Jean every single second of my life and making Jazz annoyed. Thats gold for me. I cant wait to see those two.
the story is: Rachel and Heck, long time friends and lovers, finally tie the knot, and during the celebration, Rachel starts a friendship with their florist, Luce. And while Rachel originally intended to match her new friend, Luce, up with her husband's friend, Cooper, she soon finds out that Luce is a lesbian. During the course of their friendship, Rachel starts to question her own sexuality. And though she comes to realize she may have feelings for her new friend, Rachel must decide who she will ultimately find the most happiness with: Heck, her new husband who is also adored by her family, or Luce, who has turned her life and everything she thought she new about love upside down.
Rachel: Everyone promises you happily ever after... but life turns into a different kind of fairy tale.
Rachel:[to Luce] You make me feel something I absolutely cannot feel.
Heck: It's not you leaving that's going to kill me. It's you loving someone more. Rachel: No. you're not walking way. Don't... don't walk away from me. Heck: Yeah keep saying that. Pretend this is my choice. Rachel: What do you MEAN? Heck: Oh come on Rachel. We both know you'd have left me in the end. Rachel: That's not true. Heck: YES IT IS! Heck: [quieter] Heck: Yes it is. I want you to be happy. More than anything else I wanted to be the cause of happiness in you. But if I'm not, then I can't stand in the way, you see? Because what you're feeling now, Rachel, is the unstoppable force. Which means that I've got to move its so sad to see Heck in this part.
Luce: Don't forget me. Rachel: I won't remember anything else.
Rachel: What does the lily mean? Luce: The lily means... [pause] Luce: The lily means, "I dare you to love me".
Luce: I think you know immediately. As soon as your eyes... Then everything that happens from then on just proves that you have been right in that first moment. When you suddenly realize that you were incomplete and now you are whole...
Coop: Later on tonight, we're going to fall madly in bed.
Coop: To Rachel and Heck, may they grow old together sharing the same pillow.
Luce: Tell me to walk away and I will. Rachel: Is that what you want? Luce: I want you.
Rachel: I'm staying Heck, I couldn't, wouldn't leave you. You're my best friend and what was enough before will be enough again.
Before she went to bed last night, she was thinking what is it that she really wants in her life. She was thinking of the person who made her fall in love all over again. She really didn’t know what to do. She just needed someone to talk too, to spill everything out of her heart because she is really confused. Its was around 1 in the morning, she was listening to music and waiting for anyone to show up online so she could talk too but noone did. She listened to more music and she was really paying attention to the lyrics a lot. She didn’t feel sleepy at all. So, she plans to read a book. Half way through, her thoughts disturbed her. She felt so disturbed. So, she stopped reading and went online to watch a movie. After awhile, the movie ended and again, she didn’t have anything else to do. She was awake till 4 in the morning with all her thoughts, killing her slowly. She was so helpless. Then, she when to bed but she could not fall asleep so, she end up talking to herself till she fell asleep.
Around 8am, she woke up in a shock because of the dream she had. She wasn’t able to move after. She lay on her bed a little longer while thinking about her dream. Her dream was nice but shocking. It was something she really been hoping for along time and it end up in a dream. She did felt happy about it at first but after that she said to herself “ITS JUST A DREAM”
I'm tried to hide myself from you. Its hard to think you will be mine at least for a day, someday but now, i don't think so. I don't know how you feel towards me or what you think of me. I'm done figuring you out every single day of my life. I really like you a lot. I don't think you do. You have your own things to do and I have mine. It hurts to know I cant even stand a chance compare to all the other people whom you loved. I cant just let you go either. All the time you been there for me. If I had to blame someone for all this, it will be only one person,you. You have caught me off guard. Everything you say or do makes me feel different. I don't know why but it does and I really like it but the thing is you don't see it. You don't know what you have done to me and i don't know how to say. I really want to be with you. I wish I could. But your answer is no and I don't know how to change it. I just hope wish pray I get a shot to have you all to myself for just one whole day. I really do. I wonder will you ever let me be. I cant lose you all over again. I just cant. You mean too much to me. I will break to pieces if I ever lose you again. I swear I will. I cant see you to get hurt and I cant see you with other people. It drives me crazy. I never told you how jealous I was every time when you told you are with someone. Another part its just hurts me. My feelings are all confuse but I'm only sure that I want you. I think I need to wait a little longer.
This feeling inside me,
Is almost more than I can take. I don't know how you do what you do, I'mso in love with you and it just keeps getting better. Every little thing that you do, Babe, I'm amazed by you. You touch every place in my heart, I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes.
You're a class all your own. When you talk to me, I swear the whole world stops. You make me fall in love. Without you, there's no one left then.
"It's not gonna matter anyway, whether i stay or i go because, I'm gonna love you forever."
Just about an hour ago I finished watching South of Nowhere season1. I have to say there are a few hot characters. Season 1 story starts from a family moves from Ohio to Los Angeles, where they find themselves unprepared for the city's fast pace, and the overcrowded public school that their three teenagers will attend. Its really like show. This show has tackled edgy and realistic subject matters for a teen drama like homosexuality, racism, abortion, adoption, homophobia, drugs, teen drinking, drug dealing, teen pregnancy, death, hate crimes, arrest, infidelity, condoms, college, domestic violence, stress, stepfamilies, peer pressure, sex, military and religion.
Matt Cohen who plays as Aiden Dennison. He's that guy you fall for hard in high school. Hot, smart and sweet, but with a bad boy gleam in his eye. Only problem is he's a romantic at heart, so when he falls, he falls hard. He was with Ashley, then with Spencer, then in a serious relationship with Kyla who cut Aiden down to size and brought out his softer side. But Aiden's torch for Ashley has never gone out, and he's ready to quit denying what his heart tells him.
Gabrielle Christian who plays as Spencer Carlin. Spencer's been through a lot the past few years. Her family uprooted from their small-town, Midwestern home and moved to Los Angeles. She met the dark, jaded Ashley Davies, practically her opposite, but somehow their friendship turned into a romance. As Spencer figured out that she was gay, it wasn't long before her family did too. Her mom and brother Glen struggled to understand it, but they finally began accept and support her. Now, with the murder of her brother Clay and her relationship with Ashley falling apart, Spencer continues on, hopeful, bright eyed and excited for the possibilities that lie in the future.
Mandy Musgrave who plays as Ashley Davies. When Spencer first opened her world to Ashley, the rich, detached daughter of '80s rock royalty, it was Ashley who broadened Spencer's horizon, opening her up to a grittier world, her sexuality and her first love But as their relationship grew, the tables turned. Ashley, the girl who was always the first to erect walls and deflect emotion with sarcasm, matured and softened through being with Spencer. But you can never fully take the badass out of Ashley Davies, and being with her means knowing that at any moment she can break your heart.
Spencer Carlin: When I was kissing Aiden, I was thinking about you... Ashley: Do you want that life? Stupid little comments and what you are and how you feel? That's why I learned to laugh most thing off cause it hurts too much to do anything else.
Spencer: Why didn't you say something? Ashley: Uh, I seem to recall that I did. Spencer: I'm sorry I didn't listen to you, but I just thought you were being... Ashley: Jealous.. Spencer: No, I mean... Ashley: Well I was jealous... you know in a friend sort of way, forgive me for being so needy? Spencer: Only if you forgive me for not trusting you. Ashley: Forgiven.
Spencer: Screw it, I don’t wanna be gay. Ashley: You don’t have a choice. You are who you are, Spence.
Ashley: I'm sorry. Spencer: You don't have to be. You're just going through the worst time right now. Ashley: No, I'm sorry for not letting you in. Letting you help, I'm so bad at this, but I need you so bad right now.
Spencer: I can take care of myself. With some left over to take care of you.
Ashley: What? Spencer... what's wrong? You're so beautiful. Spencer: Stop... I'm okay. It's just a big deal. And I want it to be for you, too. Ashley: It is. Spencer: When I woke up this morning and you weren't here next to me, for a second, I thought it was a dream. Ashley: I know... I didn't even want to get out of bed. I just wanted to shut out the world a little bit longer.
Tina: I only dated men before I met you. Bette: So what was I, some kind of eight and a half year aberration?
Jenny: You know what, nobody knows who they are. You know? That's what life is about, you walk through life and you try to figure it out and you probably won't figure it out.
Josh: You're way too hot for that. You're soooo not a lesbian. Tina: Are you really that clueless? You have no idea who I am or how I feel! Josh: I know that you didn't feel like a lesbian just now. Tina: This was gonna be so easy for you! I was so ready to jump into bed with you, now it turns out you're an ignorant ass! Why didn't you just shut up and fuck me? Why did you make it impossible for me to do something that I wanted to do?
Shane: Love's a bitch. I'd rather just have a good time and move on.
Shane: Alice, it's karmically wrong. It's gonna come back at you if you and Dana end up together. Alice: Alright. Yoda needs to give me some better advice or Yoda needs to shut the fuck up.
Bette: How were you when your life fell apart? Jenny: A mess. Bette: That's it. That's me. Jenny: You know what? It does get better. Bette: You know, I keep...replaying it, over and over again in my head. Just trying to figure out...the exact moment when I could've stopped myself. Jenny: No, no, no you can't do that. Because we all make mistakes. Bette: But not like me. Not like this. (Bette looks at Jenny, Jenny smiles.) Bette: I don't even know why you're talking to me about this. I mean, it wasn't like I was very nice to you when you went through all of this with Tim. Jenny: I don't know. I guess....I know how that feels.
After all this time using phone to go online now, it finally feels good to be online on my desktop.
I got somethings to post and i will do that 2moro since i'm not going to school. I got a few things to do now like updating my music and i also want download some shows. So, its a goodbye now than.
this words reminds me of you.
going out with Joey to have my dinner.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
I will have to say that this is the 1st time i'm bloggin from a phone.
Anyways, life after pmr hasnt been treatin me well. Is a BIG MESS. I cant seem to stand it. I cant wait to go for AAR, i need time alone. I want to feel the music. Just want to shut the world and enjoy the time on my own.
going back to hometown until the 19oct. means no internet until 19oct. no msn. no blog. no ps2. no twitter. no mabel, joey and brenda. no hbo, cinemax or star movies. no google and reading real stories. no tv show but for One Tree Hill on Sunday. only ps1. only books. only ipod. only texting. only thinking. only writing. only converse shoe. only AXN and Hallmark. only grandpa, dad, mum, aunts,uncles and little ones.
so, you know what to do if you care. :D
"I can't be around you anymore. it's confusing to me and makes me feel insane."
ohh, before i leave, a dialogue from The L Word.
Shane's coming-out story: "Tiffany Gardner. She was this gorgeous blonde who lived down the street. And one day I thought, 'You know what? Fuck this. Enough's enough. I'm gonna meet this chick.' So I pack up my Sunshine Meal and I walk over to her, and she's just sitting in the sandbox, playing hard to get. And I knew I was fucked. That girl took my Sunshine Meal toy. Then she took my heart."
i stood at a distance to feel who you are don't fall, just be who you are love 'til you feel it.
now you've gone somewhere else, far away. i don't know if i will find you. it makes you burn to learn you are with another man it's just like we were meant to be.
isn't this the best part of breakin' up finding someone else you can't get enough of someone who wants to be with you too high enough for you to make me wonder.
baby, i am DYING.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
what if i lose you, all over again.
"I don't know what to do. every time I look at you I feel so completely dismantled."
I miss you K.W. ALOT!
PMR is over,baby! (:
Monday, October 12, 2009
and I hope wish pray wantneed us to fall together.
Its just that you are not there for me anymore and you dont care. Did you realized you are always the last one who ask me this things. I guess there is no place for me in your heart. So why whats the use of trying rightt?
but, I'm really sorry that i called you useless. You are not useless. When people ask me how you look like, I'm always say "he's ONE HOT LOOKING*******!"
I do love you! I always did and always will. but i'm using your words "WE HAVE BIG AGE GAP!"
You got your COOL WORLD and I've my WIRED WORLD!
p/s : stop smoking!
Saturday, October 3, 2009
I didn't mean to break your heart. But baby, here I am, banging on your front door! Begging for a second chance. I was running from the truth. And now I'm crawling back to you!
