Fear of Rejection, Kept my Love Inside.

me like this ALOT!

Martin Johnson-ness

These pictures were taken on 13 oct 2009.


Just about an hour ago I finished watching South of Nowhere season1. I have to say there are a few hot characters. Season 1 story starts from a family moves from Ohio to Los Angeles, where they find themselves unprepared for the city's fast pace, and the overcrowded public school that their three teenagers will attend. Its really like show. This show has tackled edgy and realistic subject matters for a teen drama like homosexuality, racism, abortion, adoption, homophobia, drugs, teen drinking, drug dealing, teen pregnancy, death, hate crimes, arrest, infidelity, condoms, college, domestic violence, stress, stepfamilies, peer pressure, sex, military and religion.

Matt Cohen who plays as Aiden Dennison.
He's that guy you fall for hard in high school. Hot, smart and sweet, but with a bad boy gleam in his eye. Only problem is he's a romantic at heart, so when he falls, he falls hard. He was with Ashley, then with Spencer, then in a serious relationship with Kyla who cut Aiden down to size and brought out his softer side. But Aiden's torch for Ashley has never gone out, and he's ready to quit denying what his heart tells him.

Gabrielle Christian who plays as Spencer Carlin.
Spencer's been through a lot the past few years. Her family uprooted from their small-town, Midwestern home and moved to Los Angeles. She met the dark, jaded Ashley Davies, practically her opposite, but somehow their friendship turned into a romance. As Spencer figured out that she was gay, it wasn't long before her family did too. Her mom and brother Glen struggled to understand it, but they finally began accept and support her. Now, with the murder of her brother Clay and her relationship with Ashley falling apart, Spencer continues on, hopeful, bright eyed and excited for the possibilities that lie in the future.

Mandy Musgrave who plays as Ashley Davies.
When Spencer first opened her world to Ashley, the rich, detached daughter of '80s rock royalty, it was Ashley who broadened Spencer's horizon, opening her up to a grittier world, her sexuality and her first love But as their relationship grew, the tables turned. Ashley, the girl who was always the first to erect walls and deflect emotion with sarcasm, matured and softened through being with Spencer. But you can never fully take the badass out of Ashley Davies, and being with her means knowing that at any moment she can break your heart.

Spencer Carlin: When I was kissing Aiden, I was thinking about you...
Ashley: Do you want that life? Stupid little comments and what you are and how you feel? That's why I learned to laugh most thing off cause it hurts too much to do anything else.

Spencer: Why didn't you say something?
Ashley: Uh, I seem to recall that I did.
Spencer: I'm sorry I didn't listen to you, but I just thought you were being...
Ashley: Jealous..
Spencer: No, I mean...
Ashley: Well I was jealous... you know in a friend sort of way, forgive me for being so needy?
Spencer: Only if you forgive me for not trusting you.
Ashley: Forgiven.

Spencer: Screw it, I don’t wanna be gay.
Ashley: You don’t have a choice. You are who you are, Spence.

Ashley: I'm sorry.
Spencer: You don't have to be. You're just going through the worst time right now.
Ashley: No, I'm sorry for not letting you in. Letting you help, I'm so bad at this, but I need you so bad right now.

Spencer: I can take care of myself. With some left over to take care of you.

Ashley: What? Spencer... what's wrong? You're so beautiful.
Spencer: Stop... I'm okay. It's just a big deal. And I want it to be for you, too.
Ashley: It is.
Spencer: When I woke up this morning and you weren't here next to me, for a second, I thought it was a dream.
Ashley: I know... I didn't even want to get out of bed. I just wanted to shut out the world a little bit longer.

"She made me fall in love with her."