Time To Let You Go.

Its 10:49pm.

Wanna know why I'm blogging early today? That's because I got school tomorrow. Ever since PMR finish I never been to school. Yeah, its almost 2 weeks that I never been to school. So, I have finish watching Lipstick Jungle Season 2.

Seriously, I'm really bummed. I feel like noone cares anymore. Friends are no more friends that I knew. Everyone are so different. Its hard to accept that people whom I loved are now no longer that same person. Life is never easy. I cant believe things happens so fast. One minute you are laughing with them and the next minute, its like everything that was there is gone. I don't like it. I mean noone likes this. Its hard to handle things that keep falling apart in my fucked up life and I have to rebuild again and its never easy to do that. I been doing this shit since I was 13. Even I have changed. I promise to myself that I wont changed when I was 11 and look at me now. I dislike myself.

Everyday thinking of what can happen in my life. Thinking who I will lose and wondering what to do in life. I wanted to go with the flow and I don't seem to be doing that. I'm tried of all this crap.


This is your life, are you who you want to be? When the world was younger and you had everything to lose. Can somebody save me? I can see that you're uneasy and it's not gonna change. When I fall to the floor I can't feel anymore. Loneliness and pain is what I feel these days. Every stone’s been turned around. My beginning had already begun and now I have to run. There's nothing left here anymore and it's making me insane.

When I lose myself I think of you but you are no more with me. Why can't we make this darkness feel like home? One day, I get up and somebody tells me where to go to. When I get there everybody's telling me what to do. When it hurts you, scream it out loud. Noone knows how I feel. The day was dark and full of pain. Hope is all I've got.

I open up my eyes but nothings changed. My life is meaningless. It's so hard to get along with empty hands. The world makes me confuse and my sense seem to lose.

"I think our friendship is not strong anymore"