Secret #46.

Your like a bullet girl to my heart.
Your like a very far shooting star.
The very thing that I need
Look at how you get to me!
:)

Finders Keepers. ;)

New music that I found last week. Enjoy, peeps! :)

This is my most fav! (:
A happy song, for me! :DDD

There's Nothing More Important In The World Than Finding Love And Giving Love.

Jake Walden is a California based singer/songerwriter. He was born and raised the wine country of northern california, wherethey would sing Joni Mitchell songs in kindergarten. Five years ago due to a broken heart, Jake took off his shoes, opened the window and sat down to his piano and discovered a voice and some songs that would help make sense of it all. He took the next two years connecting with the piano and writing the songs that would become his debut album, Alive and Screaming. Jake Walden is a dreamer whose mother is proud of him. He believes that hope is a greater gift in life than love – and his message of hope resounds in his music. And Jake also said in a interview with AfterElton that he is openly gay as a person.

It takes a lot to love another
Even more to set them free
Even whores can fall for someone
Maybe someday, you'll fall for me

There are times when I am blinded
Other days the prophet’s mine
We are masters of illusions
As we shelter our desires

I'm not tryin' to tell you where you oughta go
I'm not tryin' to tear you down
I'm just speakin' from my heart
I'm just speakin' from my heart

So come on Mothers of the young ones
Come on Fathers of the world
Tell 'em go and search for someone
Tell 'em one day return to me

I'm not tryin' to tell you where you oughta go
I'm not tryin' to tear you down
I'm just speakin' from my heart
I'm just speakin' from my heart







I take a look around me now
It's a dark and lonely morning
Another day to rise and turn alone
I keep telling myself it's a lot to hope for
But in the end it's all that I know

So take a look around you now, take a look around
We're so afraid to catch the eyes and try
Try to believe in another
Try in all the raw and all the glory
Try through the ache of need in God and Love, so hear it now say

We are, we are, we are not broken
We are, we are, we are not broken anymore

So take me on a walk today
Let me in on lessons of your life
It takes a lot to love, but even more to hide
And it's only time

So take a look around you now, take a look around
There's so much to see beyond the lies
And try to believe in another
Try in all the raw and all the Glory
Try through the ache of need in God and Love, so hear it now say

We are, we are, we are not broken
We are, we are, we are not broken

It takes a lot to love
But it’s only time

So we are, we are, we are not broken
We are, we are, we are not broken
We are, we are, we are not broken
We are, we are, we are not broken… anymore

You You Youuuuuuu!

so it’s old news that i can’t play the guitar. but i’ll pretend to anyway, and i’ll try to to teach you how to play. you’d sit in my lap with my arm around you and i’d show you how to finger the few chords that i know (har har). when i’m teaching you how to strum i’ll oh-so-subtlely intertwine my fingers with yours. you’d look at me and smile your secret smile, the one you get before you say “i love you”. i’d lean in to peck you on your cheek but get lost in your eyes and kiss your lips instead. we’d forget about learning guitar. who needs to anyway, when you already know to play with my heartstrings… soon we’d be lying in the grass with your hands in my hair and my hands under your shirt and my heart will feel like it’s about to spill out of my chest and for those few minutes, it’ll feel like there are only the two of us in the world.

will i get to do this?

Feeling Incomplete.

Ellen moves to the beat. She is fantastic!

Dear God, I hope she is fine. Please tell her that I miss her. Thanks.



This song make me feel like me.

I Just Want To Sing It Over and Over Again!

Oh, tonight I'm feeling fine
I'm alone, just wasting time
No Friday movie nights
Or romantic candle lights

I'm just having conversations
With the thoughts in my head

All I hear are angels crying
Oh, won't they just sing instead
It would be wrong for me to say

( well i want to say this )

I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Honestly, this won't do
How is she doing?
I tell myself I'm feeling swell
But I know I'm such a fool

I could take it as a new beginning
But you know I don't feel that way
Who will take all this pain away?
I know it's wrong for me to say

( this lines is all i want to sing all day )

I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Talk about a sin
Was the day I walked into the other side
I would run back in
I wouldn't waste no time
I know it's wrong for me to say

( i love this lines. I really dont neeed you by my side )

I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah

A New Destination Of My Own Creation.

Secret #37
I’ve always wanted you to love me more than you’ve ever loved anyone. I know that you are less than I deserve but exactly what I want.

Secret #38
I keep telling myself I'll go to bed, but I have yet to get off Tumblr, climb under my warm blankets and attempt to dream of you.

Secret #39
You are all sorts of wonderful :)

Secret #40
I hope one day you'll be able to look back and think, 'Damn, she really did love me.' I hope you realize what you lost.

Secret #41
I won't let you fall away from me. You will never fade away from me. For you, I dont know.

Secret #42
I am prepared to stop anything to do with you.

Secret #43
You’re the one I wish would just leave and get of out my life. You’ve caused me so much pain and suffering, but at the same time, I wish you were mine and no one elses. I miss you really bad.

Secret #44
I’m going to stop liking you and because of that I can’t wait.

Secret #45
These are last week secrets which was written down on my wall because you make me fall asleep. (bedroom wall in pencil)

Imagine a place you can always escape to
An island off the coast of nowhere
A new destination of your own creation
Just waiting till you choose to go there

Blue treetops and velvet skies
Blue ready to blow your mind

Ooooo

This is a place where your mind can escape
All the problems today and go far, far away
This is a time with no history
Welcome to mystery

Imagine a city where everything's pretty
And you sir, you rule the kingdom
You call the shots you can do what you want to
Oh just imagine the freedom

Blue treetops and velvet skies
Blue ready to blow your mind

Ooooo

This is a place where your mind can escape
All the problems today and go far, far away
This is a time with no history
Welcome to mystery

Blue treetops and velvet skies
Blue ready to blow your mind

Ooooo

Imagine a room where the flowers they bloom
Through the cracks in the floor and the ceiling
Just you and the missus and roses and kisses
My, what a wonderful feeling

Ooooo

This is a place where your mind can escape
All the problems today and go far, far away
This is a time with no history
Welcome to mystery

This is a place where your mind can escape
All the problems today and go far, far away
This is a time with no history
Feel no misery
Come and visit me
Welcome to mystery

Paramore Fever!

No, not Justin Bieber fever.

I had this fever since late 2009 and still having it. A good fever that i never want it to end.

oh, btw, i miss you.

Beat Beat Beat Hit Hit Hit.

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Surely you can take some comfort
Knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

Let me be the one who never leaves
You all alone
I hold my breath and lose the feeling
That I'm on my own
Hold me too tight stay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

When I'm alone time goes so slow
I need you here with me
and how my mistakes have made
Your heart break
Still I need you here with me
Baby I'm here

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time

Let me be the one who calls you baby
The one who calls you baby

i will post about the band soon. hang on.

Earthquake, Babe. D:

She had an earthquake on her mind
I almost heard her cry out as I left her far behind
I knew the world was crashing down around her
I sink now to the ocean floor
Cause I know that we are more but I've made this mess
I've built this fire, are you still mine?

Cause baby I'm not all right when you go
I'm not fine, Please be all mine
I never want you to go because I am all yours so please be all mine.

She had an earthquake on her mind
apparently the kind that would bury us alive
by putting all this weight on us forever
I lie here on the ocean floor
Broken castle by the shore and I made this mess
I built this fire, are you still mine?

Cause baby I'm not all right when you go
I'm not fine, Please be all mine
I never want you to go because I am all yours so please be all mine.

Let me save us
I've slaughtered us, I've murdered our love
I can taste it, this blood in my mouth
This knife in my lungs
Have I murdered our love?
Have I murdered our love?

Cause baby I'm not all right when you go
I'm not fine, Please be all mine
I never want you to go because I am all yours so please be all mine.

Cause baby I'm not all right when you
Cause baby I'm not all right when you go
I'm not fine, Please be all mine
I never want you to go because I am all yours so please be all mine.

Please be all mine

It So Magical, He'd Be So Fantastical.

I have say awesome Sat. -two thumbs up-
I watched 17 Again and a few episode of Ellen. Had a good laugh.
I also did study but it didn't last more than 2 hours.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, exams on 19 May till 2 June. :O

Oh, have you guys heard of Greyson Chance?
He is twelve or thirteen years old YouTube sensations.
And no, he’s not the next Justin Bieber, but the first Greyson Chance!
But Grayson is way way way batter than Justin Bieber. :DD
Greyson was on Ellen show too. Just recently. How awesome is that. :D

Check out these videos :-


Greyson Chance Singing Paparazzi.
12,831,414 views.


Greyson Chance Singing Stars.
This song, Geryson said, about a wife who dies of cancer but then she goes to heaven in the "Stars" Then the husband shortly after her.
1,754,644 views.


Greyson Chance Singing Broken Hearts.
This song, Geryson said, he wrote it about two girls.
2,000,521 views.


Greyson Chance on The Ellen Degeneres Show.
This interview is really funny.

goodbye for now. (:
have fun with these videos! :D

Words Just Escape Me When It Comes To Her.

Keith Lionel Urban is a New Zealand born Australian country music singer, songwriter and guitarist whose commercial success has been mainly in the United States and Australia.



Out on the street corner
Just like every morning I sit here
And I watch you walk my way
And even though I don't know you
As you get closer I swear I feel
My heart start racing, aching
Maybe it's in my mind
And maybe I'm only dreaming
And I swear you catch my eye
As you walk on by
Oh why you gotta leave me so blue

Baby why can't you see
That I'm the only one for you
You could search the world over
But you'll never find another so true
Cause if you're looking for love
I'm standing right in front of you

I bet your heart, like mine
Has been broken by someone
We never should have given it to (oh no)
So we put up a wall to keep from falling so hard
It's so sad
Cause there's such good love inside
And I've been hoping that I might find
Someone who feels the same way
Someone to share my life
On this beautiful ride together
We could see it all through

Baby why can't you see
That I'm the only one for you
You could search the world over
But you'll never find another so true
Cause if you're looking for love
I'm standing right in front of you

So this morning I'm just going to walk up and say hello to you
Cause if given a choice between love and being alone
I know which one
I know which one I choose
And give me a chance
I'd be a better man for you (I believe I would)
And open your heart girl
Let me make your dreams come true

You can search the world over
But I can take it to the moon
Cause if you're looking for love
I'm standing right in front of you (yes I am)
Standing right in front of you
Open your eyes, I'm standing right in front of you
Just give me a chance baby
I'm standing right in front of you



I thought I was doing all right being alone
I swore I'd never let somebody get close again
I was never gonna let my guard down Not for anyone
But there's a light in your eyes and it's got me moving' in
And tonight these walls are all coming down

And my heart is open
I'm letting you in
Cause you give me a reason and the faith I've been needing to start again
And your love is healing
I'm finally breathing
I've been waiting so long hoping for this moment
My heart is open

These days it seems like everybody's just walking away
Like there's no forever and love is just a game
But don't you know you can believe me when I say that I'm your man

My heart is open
I'm letting you in baby
Cause you give me a reason and the faith I've been needing to start again
And your love is healing
I'm finally breathing
I've been waiting so long hoping for this moment
My heart is open

I can't wait anymore, no no
Because I've got nothing left to prove
And I've got so much left to use
That's why I'm tearing out the walls and baby I'm kicking down the doors

And your love is healing
Baby, I'm finally breathing
I can hear you calling, I'm ready to fall in love again
My heart is open
My heart is open
My heart is open

This guy is a heart robber. NO JOKE!

A Lonely Me.

" I'm not the one who're meant to follow. "

I’ve been lonely tonight. No, i'm lonely every night. I had a very bad breakdown on 13 of May. I skipped school just because of that. But, I think I'm better now but, who cares kan. And I’ve been also fighting the urge to text and tell that I miss. Im doing really good at it. But still I feel its really fucked up but I dont wanna to care. I been pushing myself and I cant believe I'm doing that. Oh well, someone once said that, don’t waste your time asking why such an amazing thing could happen to you, just let it happen. So, I guess let it happen.

By the way, I been asking myself so many whys' lately. And I got my answers. Its this, ‘Why’ is such a wasteful question. Why? Because that’s the way it’s supposed to be. That’s the only answer you can have. accept it. Couldn't agree more. And from this whole process, I been going through this alone. Even my best friend has no time for me. But thats okay. Studies comes first. I got that LOUD and CLEAR. And I'm proud to say that I can do this on my own. I dont have to turn to my family or friends. Its all ME ME ME! I love that feeling but still knowing doing this alone sucks.

I was reading my msg and just when I think things can’t get any worse, they do. I’ve learned that life is like an hourglass; sooner or later, everything hits rock bottom. All you have to do is be patient and wait for someone to turn everything back around. And there was a msg about missing me and than it hit me there’s only so much you can do before you stop and realize it’s over. It’s letting go of something when you know it’s near the end. As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You’ll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them.

Oh and also, relationships are hard and I always say that it doesn’t work without trust, and yes, that’s true. But I think in order to be completely head over heels, you have to be willing to be stupid. You have to be willing to fall.

this post is all about everything and everything about all i feel. (:

Secret #36.

Me being in love with a girl and wanting her to be with me, it affects no one. Yet it’s terrifying to people and they think you’re a monster. -Sara Quin.

this quote suits me.

Music Back To Back.

No words.
Only videos.

Check it out cause the songs are fucking awesome-fantastic for your iPod, Mp3, Mp4 or whatever musicplayer you use. GOOD, REAL GOOD! (Y)





































THE END!

They Classify Their Music Style As Piano Rock.

Barcelona is good for TEH heart. (Y)

Come Back When You Can by Barcelona.

I've been led on
To think that we've been
Trying for too long.
Every time we drift
We're forcing what is wrong.
At last that voice is gone.

Please take your time
But you've got to know that I am taking sight.
Oh, you look good
with your patient face and wandering eye
Don't hold this war inside.

Come back when you can.
Let go, you'll understand.
You've done nothing at all to make me love you less.
So come back when you can.

You left your home
You're so far from
Everything you know
Your big dream is
Crashing down and out your door.
Wake up and dream once more.

Come back when you can.
Let go, you'll understand.
You've done nothing at all to make me love you less.
So come back when you can.

Come back, I'll help you stand.
Let go and hold my hand.
If all you wanted was me, I'd give you nothing less.
So come back when you can ..

You Know I Love You So.

Picture, you're the queen of everything.
Far as the eye can see under your command.
I will be your guardian when all is crumbling to steady your hand.

From the moment I wake, to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side, just you try and stop me.
I'll be waiting in line, just to see if you care.

So you know how much I need you but you never even see me, do you?
And is this my final chance of getting you.

In my place, were lines that I couldn't change.
I was lost, crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed.
I was scared, tired and underprepared but, I wait for you.
If you go, leaving me here on my own well, I wait for you.

I want to take my love and hate you till the end.
There's just got to be more to you and me.

Another night goes by without sleeping cause I know I won't wake up next to you.
When I'm sitting all alone in my room, everything reminds me of you.
I'm pleading before you for you to understand, how much I adore you.

You swore that nothing would ever change the way we were right then.
I thought you would never find another love again.

That if you're by my side when everyday begins I'll fall for you again.
I'll be fine cause when I die, then I die loving you.
As long as your still mine, then it's alright.

p/s : You have gray hair now but you're a beautiful woman and the years have been good to both of us. We walk slow now, but we still have each other. The glue of love is still bonding us together. Love is what I remember. Do you remember?

Dopamine!

Chemical Love by Charlie McDonnell.

From the moment that I saw you
Yeah it had to be love
Girl I can’t help but adore you, knew
you’d fit me like a glove
What a life we have in store to
spend together and stuff
You’re a beauty, what a cutie
It’s undoubtedly love
Undoubtedly love

My legs are going weak
And my heart’s beating fast
I’m knowing I should speak to her
But I’m unsure what to ask
I feel like my technique
Might not be up to the task
But she’s the love that I do seek
and hey, she’s got a nice ass

And when she looks at me I hope she’ll feel the same
Due to the hormone that’s released inside her brain

Dopamine, dopamine

It’s a catecholamine neurotransmitter
Which means it sends a message in your brain
To tell you that you think that girl you’re looking at is fitter
to make offspring with than any other dame
And when she looks at me, yes I can feel it beating
I can tell from the shortness of my breath
That my body has reacted to our wandering eyes meeting
And the high I’m on’s comparable to Meth

But methamphetamine’s a drug of which I’m clean
Though I can’t say the same of dopamine

Dopamine, dopamine

But dopamine’s just one half of the tale
The chemical that get’s you in the mood
There’s another guy that you’ll need to prevail
If you want to see a partner in the nude

Dopamine is useless without norepinephrine
Focusing your efforts on one girl
Telling you that she’s the one who’s making your head spin
If this were an oyster then she’d be the pearl

And so I lock eyes with this girl
Ready for our love to unfurl
I just want to curl up to her
But she’s looking at me like she’s ready to hurl

I guess this lady doesn’t feel the same
I thought there was a spark, but it didn’t light the flame
But I still have the urge to ask her name
But that’s not me, that’s the hormone in my brain

Dopamine, dopamine, dopamine, dopamine
And don’t forget, norepinephrine, norepinephrine
Dopamine’s best friend, norepinephrine, norepinephrine norepinephrine!

From the moment that I saw her
Yeah I knew it was love
Couldn’t help but adore her, thought
You’d fit me like a glove
But it turned out that my thoughts were
Just impulses, not enough
To get this beauty’s pretty booty
It’s just chemical love
It’s just chemical love

Always Running Out Of Time by Motion City Soundtrack.

I won't tell you how to live your life
So please stay far away from mine
Always watching out for which and when
Is always running out of time

Drip drops in like skin of summer
All once everything unwinds
Inside-out and all about my heart
Is always running out of time
Always running out of time

I have to know
If you flew away with me
The faster I go
The further away it seems we get
And floating our way out

Tick tock, try to stop the forward motion
All heads tend to fall behind
Wasted whethers of the wish cut steeper
Is always running out of time
Always running out of time

I have to know
If you flew away with me
The faster I go
The further away it seems we get
We fall behind
And all of her end

I should have stayed
But I lost my head
With all of our words
Devoicing themselves
I should have stayed
But I lost my head
I should have stayed
But I lost myself

Always running out of time
Always running out of time
Always running out of time
Always running out of time
Always running out of time
Always running out of time
Always running out of time
Always running out of time

Screaming Infidelities!

I dont know why but this song, i mean the lyrics makes me feel something.
"Do I still love her?"
"Cant love you like the first time."


She's A Lady by Forever the Sickest Kids.

I'm in love with a girl I hate
She enjoys pointing out every bad thing about me
I'm in love with a critic and a skeptic, a traitor
I'd trade her in a second

She's a backseat driver
A drama provider
An instant update of the world
She's a first-class liar
A constant forgetter
She's attractive but bitter

Did you scream enough to make her cry?
It's a turn around
Turn around
Baby, don't return to me
If you think that I'm not worth your time

She's a lady
And ladies shouldn't be messed with
She's a lady
And ladies shouldn't be messed with

Take off your shoes
Come in the room
And baby, let's try not to argue
Turn out the lights
Turn on the radio
How can we fight when I'm too busy loving you?
I'm too busy loving you
I'm too busy loving you

Did you scream enough to make her cry?
It's a turn around
Turn around
Baby, don't return to me
If you think that I'm not worth your time

She's a lady
And ladies shouldn't be messed with
She's a lady
And ladies shouldn't be messed with

Here I am
There you go again, again
And we will not ever be 18 again
Again

And I'm worn out of fighting
And every night you leave crying
And I could use some time
Here I am
There you go again

So here I am, and I'm dying
And I'm waiting for you
Waiting for you
Come back, come back to me
And I'll take you gladly
And I'll take you anyway

Did you scream enough to make her cry?
It's a turn around
Turn around
Baby, don't return to me
If you think that I'm not worth your time [x2]

She's a lady
And ladies shouldn't be messed with
She's a lady
And ladies shouldn't be messed with

I'm sure you all have heard of this song.
anyways, enjoy. :)

I'm Being Optimistic For The First Time.

Someday you will..

You!
Baby cant you see we can't go on like this whenever.
IF you, want this you better know cuz you really got something.
Baby, maybe I'm the one you like.
IF you wanted to be my only one.
and IF you wanted to see this happen you should've tried harder.

Him or Her!
I'm sorry IF I stole your girl.
I'm sorry IF she likes me more than she ever liked you.

Me!
I guess you've got something I can't resist.
MAYBE I'm your Mr. Right.

NAW! :P

Stretch, Warm-up, Play.

Every Avenue is an American pop punk band from Marysville, Michigan formed in 2003. Band members are David Ryan Strauchman – vocals, piano, Joshua Randall – guitar, Jimmie Deeghan – guitar, backup vocals, Matt Black – bass, backup vocals, Dennis Wilson – drums.

Every Avenue - Where Were You


Every Avenue - Think of You Later (Empty Room)

Every Avenue - For Always, Forever

p/s : this is a messy post. but check out this band. they sound really good. even in LIVE. :)