" I'm not the one who're meant to follow. "
I’ve been lonely tonight. No, i'm lonely every night. I had a very bad breakdown on 13 of May. I skipped school just because of that. But, I think I'm better now but, who cares kan. And I’ve been also fighting the urge to text and tell that I miss. Im doing really good at it. But still I feel its really fucked up but I dont wanna to care. I been pushing myself and I cant believe I'm doing that. Oh well, someone once said that, don’t waste your time asking why such an amazing thing could happen to you, just let it happen. So, I guess let it happen.
By the way, I been asking myself so many whys' lately. And I got my answers. Its this, ‘Why’ is such a wasteful question. Why? Because that’s the way it’s supposed to be. That’s the only answer you can have. accept it. Couldn't agree more. And from this whole process, I been going through this alone. Even my best friend has no time for me. But thats okay. Studies comes first. I got that LOUD and CLEAR. And I'm proud to say that I can do this on my own. I dont have to turn to my family or friends. Its all ME ME ME! I love that feeling but still knowing doing this alone sucks.
I was reading my msg and just when I think things can’t get any worse, they do. I’ve learned that life is like an hourglass; sooner or later, everything hits rock bottom. All you have to do is be patient and wait for someone to turn everything back around. And there was a msg about missing me and than it hit me there’s only so much you can do before you stop and realize it’s over. It’s letting go of something when you know it’s near the end. As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You’ll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them.
Oh and also, relationships are hard and I always say that it doesn’t work without trust, and yes, that’s true. But I think in order to be completely head over heels, you have to be willing to be stupid. You have to be willing to fall.
this post is all about everything and everything about all i feel. (:
By the way, I been asking myself so many whys' lately. And I got my answers. Its this, ‘Why’ is such a wasteful question. Why? Because that’s the way it’s supposed to be. That’s the only answer you can have. accept it. Couldn't agree more. And from this whole process, I been going through this alone. Even my best friend has no time for me. But thats okay. Studies comes first. I got that LOUD and CLEAR. And I'm proud to say that I can do this on my own. I dont have to turn to my family or friends. Its all ME ME ME! I love that feeling but still knowing doing this alone sucks.
I was reading my msg and just when I think things can’t get any worse, they do. I’ve learned that life is like an hourglass; sooner or later, everything hits rock bottom. All you have to do is be patient and wait for someone to turn everything back around. And there was a msg about missing me and than it hit me there’s only so much you can do before you stop and realize it’s over. It’s letting go of something when you know it’s near the end. As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You’ll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them.
Oh and also, relationships are hard and I always say that it doesn’t work without trust, and yes, that’s true. But I think in order to be completely head over heels, you have to be willing to be stupid. You have to be willing to fall.
this post is all about everything and everything about all i feel. (:
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