Trying Something New.

Hello.

Dont worry, I'm not going to emo.
I just want to try something new and I have some updated.

From 4 Jan 2010, I'm a Malurian.
Yup, that's right, I changed school.
Well, I'm sure I'm going to miss all of my friends in BSD.
Especially, Sheryll Siew, Jazz, Jean and Sueanne.
These people rocked my school days since 2007.
I'm glad I've met them :)
Thank you so much for being there for me and rocking my school days.

As for today, New Year Eve was suppose to be with Mabel but plans got canceled.
I'm really sad about that. Because I was really looking forward to it.
I really wanted my 1st day of 2010 with her.
But I understand. She has to travel very far to see me.
Its alright, its okay.


I have to tell that 2009 was not my favorite year.
Best Part : MTV World Stage with Joey, Brenda and Ris.
was the highlight of the year.

Worst Part : Grandpa passed away.
I still cant believe he is gone ):

As for 2010, I want to make it a different.
I dont have a resolutions for this year.
Oh, wait, maybe just one.
- Tell you that I like you and I wanna be with you.
Yea, thats right. I like not love.

I mean after 4 years of being in love with the same person, I came to the sense that its never going to work and all this while I love him with all my heart. He was a good person. A great guy for any girls but not for me. I had a crush on him for like 4 years and truth to be told he is my very first crush. Its a history now and I'll always remember him. He left the mark. Somehow, I still think of him.

Now, I know love is something really big thing and I'm not ready for it.
But currently I have a crush. And I like her.
Yes, its HER. Deal with it. (:

Starting from 2010, I'm going to be a batter person. I need to change. This old me, thinking away, emoing, not able to be strong on my own, losing my temper, always need a friend by my side, and alot more. Its really dumb and childish. I always knew I was not okay. Not normal. For my age, I think I should be enjoying life as it come. You know, like go with the F-L-O-W. I need to grow up. Take things positively. Be strong on my own. Not thinking as much as I shouldn't. Not counting on friends. Be mature. Be hardworking. I want make it happen. I cant be fooling around, not anymore.

I'm sleepy. Time to go.
Before I do,