Random, I Would Say.

I was thinking and I came to this, I never really knew why I couldn't be with you until this very moment. I don't really know you that well but I'm willing to. I just don't get it why must it be you that I'm waiting for. Why cant I just move on and get over you. Why must I always seek for your name or picture when I read your school magazine. Sometimes, it is a story that has history and chapters yet to be written.

I'm just crapping I guess.

They say we leave this world just the way we came into it naked and alone. So, if we do leave with nothing, What then, is a measure of a life? Is it defined by the people we choose to love? Or is life simply measured by our accomplishments? And what if we fail ? or are never truly loved ? What then? Can we ever measure up? Or will the quiet desperation of a life gone wanting, Drive us mad?

The question is, Why are you so insistent on going through life alone ?

Sometimes when you're young, you think nothing can hurt you. It's like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you, and you have big plans. Big plans. To find your perfect match. The one that completes you. But as you get older, you realize it's not always that easy. It's not until the end of your life that you realize how the plans you made were simply plans. At the end, when you're looking back instead of forward, you want to believe that you made the most of what life gave you. You want to believe that you're leaving something good behind. You want it all to have mattered.

I want you to know you don't need somebody to write about you in order for your life to mean something.

You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices or you can fight back. Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world. That's just the way it is. But for the most part, you get what you give. Rest of your life is being shaped right now. With the dreams you chase, the choices you make and the person you decide to be. The rest of your life is a long time. And the rest of your life starts right now.

Have you ever wondered what marks our timing?

Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when you let down a friend. Some of us escape the pain of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because we're looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change your own ways. But, our biggest regrets are not for the things we did but, for the things we didn't do. Things we didn't say that could've save someone that we care about. Especially when we can see the dark storm that's headed their way.

You Threw Mine Heart To The Sky.

You are always on my mind. Your secret's safe and no one has to know. I'm your getaway and a little bit more than you can take. We're heading to a place where I'll prove I'm all you want and more. I can see it in your eyes, you're scared, all these things they force you to do aren't fair. I'm here to chase away these tears. Sometimes baby you fall on your back and you know, you know it's true this is a fight I refuse to lose. I'll run, have a little faith in me. I know you're scared and alone. Don't worry this is where we both break free and I'll bring you home. I can hear it in your voice, you care. Let me run my fingers through your hair. I'll keep you company at night and baby I'm here to make this right. Believe me and don't think twice and don't leave me or say goodbye.

You wear your heart on your sleeve and threw mine to the sky. This is it, call it quits with honesty. Every word is a curse let loose on me your mouth it moves but fails to speak and when you use your lips they better be on me. The lies that tied your tongue in knots are the words that grew to hit my spots. Liers turn me on. We're only two in a crowded room were others fade away. It's only a crime if I get caught. It's only a line if it get's bought. I know I left that room with no goodbye and now I'm on my way back home. Lets end this tragedy today. Now take my hand and we will run away. Down to this place that I know. Did this night become the enemy ?
Lay down with me and let me hold you. Baby, just breathe this is ending and we will get through eventually we wont be apart of this.

I came home welcomed back by the lights left my heart to accompany her nights.
Her kissed sealed the deal but her smile was the magnet. I came home welcomed back by the lights took her heart to accompany my nights. The twelfth day was made for you and me. The time spent being with my baby. Do you know how it feels to find love in the small city of cedar? and do you know how I feel everytime I hear her voice or see her?
In my heart and soul I know I need her.

How nice will it be if a guy sings that to his girl ?

Underclass Hero.

I tried to be perfect,
But nothing was worth it,
I don’t believe it makes me real.
I thought it’d be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

This place is so empty,
My thoughts are so tempting,
I don’t know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it’s so crazy,
That nothing can save me,
But it’s the only thing that I have.

I tried to be perfect,
It just wasn't worth it,
Nothing could ever be so wrong.
It’s hard to believe me,
It never gets easy,
I guess I knew that all along.

x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x

Sorry, Mom, but I don't miss you
Father's no name you deserve
I'm just a kid with no ambitions
Wouldn't come home for the world.

Never know what I've become
The king of all that's said and done
The forgotten daugether.

A walking disaster
The son of all bastards
You regret you made me
It's too late to save me

x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x

If you are wondering why some of the words are BOLD
cause it means something to me.

Protect The Core.

Body Glove.

The sexy back model is Joey Yep Tee Nee.

I <3 Body Glove
What about you ?

Body Glove Story !
The life story of twin brothers Bob and Bill Meistrell is an all-American rags-to-riches tale of building the Body Glove empire and creating the California lifestyle dedicated to the ocean. After their father was killed when they were only four, Bob and Bill grew up on a farm near Booneville, Missouri, far from the oceans, but they had the spirit of adventure and an instinctive love for exploring the water. They taught themselves to swim early and by age twelve had rigged a makeshift diving bell out of a wooden crate and descended into the depth of the farm pond. When they moved to Manhattan Beach as teenagers in the 1940's, Bob and Bill instantly took to the ocean, joining with the other pioneers of California surfing including the legendary Dale Velzy and Greg Noll to form the Manhattan Beach Surf Club. Cementing their commitment to the water and establishing their credentials as true watermen, Bob and Bill became L.A. County Lifeguards, then scuba divers, then vital participants in the First Los Angeles County Underwater Instructors Course (1UICC), joining the first group in the world to become certified scuba instructors. Bob and Bill borrowed $1800 and bought out Hap Jacobs and became partners with Bev Morgan in 1953 to develop Dive N' Surf into southern California's premiere retail store dedicated to surfing and diving, while continuing to surf every day, lifeguard, and operate a commercial diving business. Bob and Bill went on to expand the business to offer full lines of surfing and diving equipment, classes and apparel at multiple locations and thereby create a southern California retail institution introducing untold numbers of people young and old to the oceans. Bob and Bill found a new insulating material called Neoprene and invented the first practical wetsuit, opening the cold California waters to year round enjoyment for surfers and divers, including early giants of surfing like Greg Noll, Mickey Munoz and many more. The suit "fit like a glove" and Body Glove was born. The Meistrells hired a marketing consultant, Duke Boyd. Duke asked about the characteristics of the suits and Billy said, "They fit like a glove," so Duke came up with the name Body Glove.

It Always Seems Impossible Until Its Done.

So, there I was doing sitting down in my new place in my class finishing up my homeworks. I was so relief that I was finally finishing up my homeworks and I cant start studying for my mid-term. This is where I felt like killing my form 2 Science. Puan.Whatever Her Name Is came in my class and she called a few of us out and then she said that our Peka 2 and 3 are missing so, we have to do it again and pass up it by this thursday because she must give marks for it. My friends all went HUH ? How can go missing ? Apa la Cikgu? and I said WTF out loud and teacher was looking at me and I couldnt careless about her staring down at me. She still have the guts to tell to us that make sure you all pass up by thursday okay. If not no marks then your PMR sijil will have a BLACK mark. I mean what the FUCK, she lost our papers and then she still can us that she wont give us marks if dont pass up before thurday. ARGHH ! *crack head*

I know what I should love to do--to build a study; to write, and to think of nothing else. I want to bury myself in a den of books. I want to saturate myself with the elements of which they are made, and breathe their atmosphere until I am of it. Not a bookworm, being which is to give off no utterances; but a man in the world of writing--one with a pen that shall stop men to listen to it, whether they wish to or not.

Jesus Take The Wheel

I'm suppose to be doing my Geography notes now but I'm right here sitting in front of the computer and blogging. School was just fine today. I'm really tried right now. Feel like sleeping but I cant cause I have to finish my notes and start with my Geography project. Form 3 is really troublesome. So many things to do in so little time. Homeworks keep coming more and more by day by day. Have to study for mid-term. I have this class monitor things to do. I'm so afraid of maths. I keep thinking about maths everyday. Wondering I cant even do a simply maths, how am I going to do during PMR. Maths really scares the sh!t out of me. I dislike numbers. I think History is much more better than Maths. I really starting to hate Science. I dont like Science only one reason which is how much I read or how much exercise I do, it never gets into my mind. I cant never understand what the teacher is trying to say even the topic is very easy to understand. I dont know why that happens.

How does she know you love her? How does she know she's yours? How does she know that you really, really, truely love her? It's not enough to take the one you love for granted. You must remind her, or she'll be inclined to say... "How do I know he loves me?" "How do I know he's mine?" Well does he leave a little note to tell you you are on his mind? He'll find a new way to show you, a little bit everyday. That's how you know he's your love... You've got to show her you need her. Don't treat her like a mind reader. Each day do something to need her to believe you love her. Everybody wants to live happily ever after. Everybody wants to know their true love is true... Well does he take you out dancin' just so he can hold you close? Dedicate a song with words in just for you. His heart will be yours forever.

Fernando Torres.

Number 9 stands for Torres (:

so fineeee :D

Oh Torres you're so fine, you're so fine you blow my mind, hey Torres, hey Torres.

Wish You Were Here.

Gone away are the golden days
Just a page in my diary
So here I am, a utopian citizen
Still convinced there's no such thing as idealism

Memories they're following me like a shadow now
And I'm dreaming
And I've already suffered the fever of disbelief

I've seen your act
And I know all the facts
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
It ain't hard to see
Who you are underneath
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
And I wish you were here

I was true as the sky is blue
I couldn't soon say the same for you
So now I find denial in my eyes
I'm mesmerized by the picture that's in my mind

Tell me when I'll finally see your shallow heart
For what it is
Cause I don't want to keep on believing in illusions

[Chorus]

Sometimes I can't explain
And I'm so sorry that I can't
I'll try to concentrate
On your true identity

[Chorus]

Everything In Between.

I'm back. Just finish my Living Skill notes. I took 2 hours to finish 3 chapter and of cause with ugly hand writing. Now, I still have to finish my History and Geography notes and then my History project. Hopefully, I can finish by tomorrow. I still have to study for my up coming exams which is mid-term means form 1 and 2 are include. I'm so going to fail every subject but my English cause I'm proud enough to say that I'm good in English. But, I will never know. I might pass everything and fail my English. Who knows right ? (:

I miss watching One Tree Hill. I miss learning what is friendship and love is all about. I miss listening to all the moral values about life after each episode. I miss Peyton Sawyer emo-ness. I miss Brooke Davis smile. I miss Haley James Scott songs. I miss Nathan Scott hot body. I miss Lucas Scott hair style. I miss Jamie Lucas Scott cute-ness. I miss everything so much. I want to watch back One Tree Hill all over again. Lastly, and most importantly, One Tree Hill has heart. A lot of it. Love and friendship are the main themes of the show.

missitsomuch.

I like her the most cause of the story line.

Peyton: Someone once told me, Every song has an ending Jake, but is that any reason not to enjoy the music?

Peyton: You're always saving me.
Lucas: Somebody has got to.

Peyton: (voiceover) At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls. And sometimes -- all you need is one.

Peyton : Anna, it's not about who I am, okay. It's about who they are. They are people who hate, and they divide, and they feed off of people who don't fight back. Yeah I could laugh this off, but what about the girl who can't? Who's gonna help her. Silence only makes them stronger.

Lucas: Peyton...I...
Peyton: Don't! It was stupid, ok? You're with Brooke now.
Lucas: (pause) Yeah.
Peyton: We just, we got carried away. It didn't mean anything.
Lucas: It didn't?
Peyton: Of course it did.

Peyton: Dear diary, my dad doesn't love me. P.S. stay out of my life!

Lucas: Can I ask you a question?
Peyton: It's a free country...
Lucas: Why are you a cheerleader? I mean, no offence or anything, but you're above the least cheery person I know. ... Come on let me give you a ride. I'll let you insult me.
Peyton: First of all, you don't know me. Second of all, you don't know me. God, why are guys such as jercks?

Peyton Sawyer: [entering Brooke's store] Your mom's a bitch!
Brooke Davis: What happened?
Peyton Sawyer: She went to the recording studio and freaked out Mia who is MIA, imagine that, and now I don't have an artist.
Brooke Davis: I'm sorry Peyton, I'll talk to her.
Brooke Davis: It's either that or my fists talk to her face and that's gonna be a longer conversation.

Brooke: [to the adoption agency woman] Do you know what my mother said to me when I told her I wanted to start a company? She said "your chances are one in a million" and I said "Maybe I'm that one" and she said "you're not.". And she was wrong. And whatever she thought she saw in me was wrong... Because I am one in a million and there is a child out there who has something so special inside of them but whose life is miserable because they think that nobody wants them. And I could be a great mother to that child, no matter their age or race or sex. I could help them find what makes them special. And if you can't see that, then you're wrong, just like my mother. Why don't you go ahead and write that down?

Brooke: I want to have a baby.
Peyton: With me?
Brooke: No. I've spent four years working these endless hours to fill this void that all the success in the world is never gonna fill and I realized that what I actually want is to have a family.

Brooke: Sorry... Okay. Peyton, do you want to know why I came home? Besides to help you. I am 22 years old and I have made more money than I could ever hope to spend and I have never felt more alone in my life. You need to talk to him Peyton. Just talk to him. And if you let the fact that Lucas said 'I do' today to Lindsey while he was obviously lying to his own heart be the reason that you sit here and cry, I am gonna smack you across your pretty face.

Peyton: He said 'I do', Brooke. The minister asked if he would love and cherish Lindsey forever and he said 'I do'.
Brooke: Bitch you need to stop!

Peyton: Okay. How about this? How about Peyton puts on a nice dress, watches Lucas get married, gets wasted and has drunk, meaningless sex with some guy at the reception?
Brooke: Yes.
Skills: Hey, baby, I ever tell you how sexy you look in that dress? Maybe we should head in. Brooke: Behave, or I will smack you.

Brooke: Rachel, what happened to you?
Rachel: Life, I guess.

Brooke: I'm not gonna tell you how to be with Lindsey, but most of your life I've known you to take the high road.
Peyton: I know, Brooke. I just, I'm so sick of looking at her and her precious ring.
Brooke: Don't you mean YOUR precious ring?

Brooke: It has always been "Lucas and Peyton". You guys are meant to be together. It's the way it's supposed to be. So go and get your man. And this time, if he proposes please say "yes." Peyton: Wait, if I came back for Lucas, then why did you come back?
Brooke: Duh! For Lucas. Game on, bitch!

Brooke: Okay, I think that might be the second stupidest thing you've done in the last 24 hours. Luke, we're not in high school anymore. And I love Peyton, and even if you don't wanna admit it right now, so do you. Okay?

Peyton: Well.
Brooke: Well. Oh don't look away, second and third greatest nights in your life just walked back into your world.
Peyton: You looking all rock star totally does it for me.
Brooke: It's very heroine chic Nate, I like it.
Nathan: What are you guys doing here?
Brooke: Well, Lucas tells me you can walk but you need a little incentive so we have come up with a drill.
Peyton: For every step you take we kiss.

Brooke: I believe in our lives we were all meant to do something. It does not matter when your success comes, success can come whenever you want it to.

Chase Adams: Everything you wrote to me, I feel it too. I just didn't know how to put it in words.
Brooke: You just did.

Brooke: I guess now it's hoes over psychos.

Lucas (Voiceover):Sometimes i wonder if anything's absolute anymore. Is There Still right and wrong? Good and bad? Truth and lies? Or is everything negotiable,left to interpretation, grey. Sometimes we're forced to bend the truth, transform it, cause we're faced with things that are not of our own making. And sometimes things simply catch up to us.

Lucas (Voiceover): Truth is still absolute. Believe that. Even when that truth is hard and cold, and more painful than you've ever imagined. And even when truth is more cruel than any lie.

Lucas: Have you ever wondered what marks our time here? If one life can really make an impact on the world...or if the choices we make matter? I believe they do. And I believe that one man can change many lives. For better...or worse.
Keith: Just breathe, Lucas. It's all gonna be okay.

Lucas: There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.

Lucas: You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background?. It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples life have we been in. Were we a part of someone's life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died. Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone elses life, and not even know it.

Lucas: Because it´s only when you´re tested that you truly discover who you are. And it´s only when you´re tested that you discover who you can be. The person that you want to be does exist, somewhere in the other side of hard work and faith, and belief and beyond the HEARTACHE and fear of what life has.

Lucas: But once in a while people push on to something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in. Or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quite persistence of a dream.

Lucas: There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.

Lucas: My name is Lucas Scott. I'm a senior at Tree Hill High School. Tree Hill is just a place somewhere in the world. Maybe it's a lot like your world. Maybe it's nothing like it. But if you look closer, you might see someone like you. Or someone like my best friend, Haley. If you're married, a senior in high school, and not sure if your husband is still alive, then I'd say your world is a lot like Haley's. Today was supposed to be the best day of her life. But it's amazing how things can change in the blink of an eye. Or, in this case, in 29 minutes.

Lucas: Most of our lives are a series of images, they pass us by like towns on a highway. But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens and we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever.

One Tree Hill Always The Smarter Choice <33

All I Need Is To Turn Around.

Hey Hey Hey !

Alot of people have told me that my blog is very emo. So, I was thinking about it and yes I do agreed my blog is very emo. Its emo cause I speak out my problems here most of the time. Sometimes I don't tell my problem straight to the point but I will use song lyrics. And that's because I believe that song lyrics speaks more clearly to me. I love the way my blog is. So, I'm if its too emo. I will try to post more non-emo stuff if I can. No promise yet but I will try.

As I go on, I found a new interest on albums. I love collecting em'. Well, some of you people will be thinking why buy albums when you can download em' for free. For me its because it makes me happy to see the collection of albums I have. It really makes me happy to listen to it when I'm in the room. Especially when I'm alone. I think that's my new hobbie. Haha. Believe it or not after a few years without a hobbie, I finally found one.

For the second video check it out here. This is the official music video.

Okay, time for me to go and finish up my homeworks and study if I can. BYE! *signing off*

Wait For You.

[Verse 1]

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, you're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]

Baby why can't we just, just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it won't be enough

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

[Chorus]

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

Its one a.m.
I just lost a friend.
Hope you know its not easy,
Easy for me.



and

Wish I can keep you much longer

He's Just Not That Into You.

Are you the exception...or the rule?

I watched it at last. I wanted to watch this movie in the cinema but I didn't have the time to go so, I bought the dvd. I really enjoyed the movie. The genre of the movie was comedy, drama, romance and many more. You all should watch it.

Gigi: A girl will never forget the first boy she ever likes.

Mary: I had this guy leave me a voicemail at work, so I called him at home, and then he emailed me to my BlackBerry, and so I texted to his cell, and now you just have to go around checking all these different portals just to get rejected by seven different technologies.
Mary: It's exhausting.

Alex: If a guy doesn't call you, he doesn't want to call you.

Mary: What if you meet the love of your life, are you supposed to let them pass you by?

Gigi: I would rather be like that, then be like you.
Alex: Excuse me? What's that supposed to mean?
Gigi: I may dissect each little thing and put myself out there so much but at least that means that I still care. Oh! You've think you won because women are expendable to you. You may not get hurt or make an ass of yourself that way but you don't fall in love that way either. You have not won. You're alone. I may do a lot of stupid shit but I'm still a lot closer to love than you are.

Gigi: Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.

Jennifer Aniston as Beth Bartlett.


Ben Affleck as Neil Jones.


Justin Long as Alex.


Ginnifer Goodwin as Gigi Haim.


Kevin Connolly as Conor.


Drew Barrymore as Mary Harris.


Bradley Cooper as Ben Gunders.


Jennifer Connelly as Janine Gunders.