Secret #81.

You and me we're face to face, but we don't see eye to eye.

Heavy.

I love this song for everything it is. I dont know if I've gone mad or what but I use to dislike people who does a Christmas song about a break up or sad thing because Christmas is a joyful celebration and to turn something so joyful to sad, just make me feel uncomfortable at times. But this song is what I'm loving right now. Every bit of it.

"I'm of good cheer cause I've been checking my list the gifts you're receiving from me will be one awkward silence and two hopes you cry yourself to sleep. Don't come home for Christmas you're the last thing I wanna see underneath the tree. Merry Christmas, I could care less. Happy New Years, baby. You owe me the best gift I will ever ask for, don't call me up, when the snow comes down its the only thing I want this year."

Those words you read up there is what that made me feel slight better, I would say. I know that the words up there doesn't point out what Im trying to tell in the passages below it or maybe it does. Im not so sure but I think if you get my point you might understand or maybe not. Anyways, its been one hell of a tough month I would say.

Lovely and Endearing.

I am moving past this giving notice.

You Sent Me To The Brink

Can you lie next to her and confess your love as well as your folly?

But tell me now, where was my fault in loving you with my whole heart?

You desired my attention but denied my affections.

Oh, tell me now, where was my fault in loving you with my whole heart?

Not To Be Afraid.

I'm standing up, I'ma face my demons

I'm manning up, I'ma hold my ground

I've had enough, now I'm so fed up

Time to put my life back together right now!

It's a game called circle and I don't know how, I'm way too up to back down but I think I'm still tryin to figure this crap out. Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't, this fuckin black cloud still follows me around but it's time to exorcise these demons.

Secret #80.

Don’t tell me the sky is the limit, when there are footprints on the moon.

Sing-a-Longs and Lullabies.

Jack Johnson, its been four years and I still love you like I was 12.

Well if I was in your position

I'd put down all my ammunition

I'd wondered why'd it taken me so long B

ut Lord knows that I'm not you

And If I was I wouldn't be so cruel

Cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do

Sometimes life can be deceiving

I'll tell you one thing it's always better when we're together

I believe in memories

They look so, so pretty when I sleep

Hey now, and when I wake up,

You look so pretty sleeping next to me

But there is not enough time,

And there is no, no song I could sing

And there is no, combination of words I could say

But I will still tell you one thing

We're better together.

Where'd all the good people go?

I've been changing channels

I don't see them on the TV shows

Where'd all the good people go?

But you can't stop nothing

If you got no control

Of the thoughts in your mind

That you kept in, you know

You can't stop wishing

If you don't let go

The things that you find

And you lose and you know

I need this here

Old train to breakdown

Oh, please just

Let me please breakdown

Though you were lazy about it, you made me wait around

I was so crazy about you, I didn't mind

Guess that I was afraid that if you rolled away

You might not roll back my direction real soon

You played me boogie-woogie I played you love songs