Everything used to be simple with you and me. I don't know what changed but you're not the same. We were all about hanging out but lately you're so distant, almost somebody different that I never met before. You used to call to say you miss me but now I guess you're way too busy What we had is fading and I can feel you walking away.
From : Me.
-Whats Overdose going to be like if Brenda doesn't come?
People seem to leave when they find someone new. Anyways, I'm really tried. I can just sleep off if I lay on my bed but I'm not going to do that because lately, my night have been ending with a small chat with Mabel. She's my special type of sleeping pill. I don't really have much to blog. I might talk about some myths based of Bisexual. Oh, by the way, I'm going to buy a Converse T-shirt and a Topman T-shirt. My budget is RM150. Hopefully, can buy la. I love it when I use my own money buying things I love. I feel so proud of myself. :D And I'm also going to hunt and buy The Veronicas albums. Both of it. Hook Me Up and The Secret Life of. That will cost me another 100. So, all together it will 250 which means my salary for the week is gone. YAY ME!
I hope someone in this world is kind enough to offer me a job again. I still need to get Paramore's new album, Brand New Eyes. So many albums to buy and I also need to find a place to put these albums. Speaking of album, I need to get Boys Like Girls ablums too. Runnin low on money. Need to find a job. Maybe I should try Tropicana Cafe near Padimas. Like Azizul. I should call them up.
Forgotten the taste and smell of the world that she's left behind. Well you built up a world of magic because your real life is tragic. If it's not real you can't hold it in your hand. You can't feel it with your heart and I won't believe it. - :Paramore.
The worst part is, before it gets any better we're headed for a cliff and in the free fall I will realize I'm better off when i hit the bottom. The tragedy it seems unending. We're taking short cuts and false solutions. It's not existant but we just keep believing. - :Paramore.
He broke his own heart and I watched as he tried to reassemble it. I'd never sing of love if it does not exist maybe I know somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts. We've got to find other ways to make it alone but keep a straight face. I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness cause none of it was worth the risk. I've got a tight grip on reality but I can't let go of whats in front of me here. - :Paramore.
these pictures inspires me to be a band photographer. like what Yana told me when we first started talking.
:Paramore!
1. Myth: Bisexual Women are Really Straight. Fact: Bisexual women are attracted to both men and women. Some bisexual women are more attracted to women. Others are more attracted to men. Some are equally attracted to both men and women. Where ever they fall in the spectrum, a bisexual woman is someone who enjoys intimacy with both men and women.
2. Myth: Bisexual Women are Really Lesbians. Fact: Some women may come out as bisexual before they come out as lesbian because either they're not really sure what they are, or they may think bisexuality is more acceptable than being a lesbian. Bisexuality can be a pathway to coming out as lesbian, but it is not always the case. Conversely, some women may come out as lesbian, but then realize that bisexuality is a more authentic identity. 3. Bisexual Women are Sexually Confused. Fact: There is a belief in both the straight and lesbian community that bisexuals cannot make up their minds which sex they want to be with. Usually it is the straight and gay people who are confused. The bisexuals know who they like: both men and women!
4. Bisexual Women are Promiscuous. Fact: Because bisexual women are attracted to both sexes, some people assume that they are more sexually promiscuous than other people. The truth is, bisexual women are as diverse as the rest of the population. Some may be having all kinds of sexual experiences, others may not have had any sexual relationships at all. 5. Bisexuals will Never Settle with one Person. Fact: Along with other myths about bisexuals is they myth that they will never settle with one sex because they will always be thinking about the other sex. The truth is bisexuals have as much ability to be monogamous as anyone.
Everything up here its freaking true. I called up a friend just now and we were talking about this and every single myths here was freaking true. Kathy Belge, a person I look up too.
"For Lindsay, it's not about being gay—it's about being in love with Samantha. They couldn't care less what anyone thinks of them as long as they have each other."
Your gonna miss this and someday, your gonna want this back. Your gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast. You may not know it now. You know, I never really thought of saying these words to you but I think I was wrong cause one day, you will miss me and you will regret for being close to me. You will think of the words you use to say to me and not meaning it. You just wait and see. You wont know it now but sooner or later you are going too.
be right back.
I came cause I wanted to check on your injuries and also to tell you that I'm plainly hanging by a thread and I'm running low on patience. Nothing makes sense, I can't tell love from hate and I have been begging myself to make something out of it. I need you to tell me something new cause it's just that you're uneasy when you need me. You can say it's right, but it feels so wrong. Maybe, I've broken my heart so many times and I stopped keeping track. Talking myself in and talking myself out, its hard. I get all worked up but in the end I let myself down and blame other people.
Wait,does this make any sense?
"At the time I was 15 and I had been trying to get with a boy for about six months but he had me on hold. The only people I was out to was my best friend Vanessa and my friend Dee Dee. One day Dee Dee told me that a friend of hers, whom I had a major crush on, liked me and introduced us. Two days later Anisha became my very first girlfriend. One day before third period the boy I wanted to get with saw us kissing goodbye. That day at lunch I was sitting eating and all of a sudden everyone at one table turned and looked at me once. A boy named Sam came up to me and said, "Is it true?" I nodded. He said, "Stand up, you see all these n****s in here and you wit a female?"
That was Friday, by Monday the whole school knew. I was a lucky one in that I haven't been teased much. I still get the looks and the whispers, but mostly all of my friends stayed by me and continue to do so.
So school life was fine, but then my mother found out. Total melt down could be the word. Think of a mother taking her 15 year old daughter coming out in the worst possible way and times that by about 20 and you have how my deeply religious mother took it.
I am now 17 and out to everyone I know and outed to those I meet by my 15 year friend Jon who introduces me as his "Cool lesbian Jo." I have been kicked out of my house and live with my best friend Vanessa. My mother keeps in contact with me. My stepdad and I haven't talked in four months and my real father loves my girlfriend. My younger brother and sister couldn't care less who I'm with as long as I'm happy."
--Jo
I don't seem to like you anymore. You seem to be so far away. You make me feel useless. You are my best friend and I don't think you are anymore. I'm going to put a fullstop for it. Its never going to be forever. I knew it, I hope you did too. I'm tried of holding on so, its time to let go but I don't know how. I suck at saying goodbye. It kills me inside to know that you are longer who I thought you be. You weren't meant to be apart of my life and I wasn't meant to be part of your life too.
Dude, getting pissed is my way and what the hell is your way,again?
will be back.
"we were best friends now we don't even talk"
My weekend really sucked. I mean it. I just don't want to talk about it or think about it. There was two good things. One : I was f-ing pissed on Saturday that lead me to finish my The Bermudez Triangle. Two : Jay got his bike license and he took me on a ride and he bought me KFC. But still, my weekend sucked.
The Bermudez Triangle is awesome. I need to re-read it again. Anyways, I don't have much to blog about cause I'm tried. Btw, Mabel, thanks for being there for me and for keeping me sane. I love you! I missed my iTunes alot and now I'm blasting my speak with good songs.
Who's up for skipping school and going out to OU on Friday with me to catch two amazing movie called Jennifer Body and Time Traveler's Wife.
"Nothing really ever changed in her life - things just got bigger, longer, and increasingly complicated."
of Katherine Moennig.
of Katherine Moennig.
