Its been one month and I still haven't heard from my grandpa. Not a phone call. Not even a dream call. I guess he is busy with his wife and son. Hm. Grandpa, I've been having bad dreams about a friend of mine. Her name is Mabel and the dream was scary and it came twice in a row. So, please please be her guardian angle till she gets back to Malaysia. Please. Maybe its just a dream but mummy said early morning dreams MIGHT come true and and I'm really worried. :( Help on this alright? I cant be flying around and I know you can, so yeah. Please, tahu. I'll cook your favorite curry if she comes back safely. And also nasi lemak, which you always want when you come here with milo panas. Remember? Make sure you jaga her tahu.
Grandpa, tomorrow I'm getting my result for PMR and you said you will be here when I get it and since you didn't keep your words, this is one more reason why you must jaga her. Hm, see, you got so many things to do. Siapa suruh you pergi without telling me, huh? Anyways, I been getting alot of scary dreams, you know. I don't know what do to la. Its so hard to sleep. I hope you will come soon and tell me things I should be doing. And btw, I'm telling you this because I dont lie to you and so do you. I hate your daughter. No, not my mum, but my mum's sister. Yes, your 2nd freaking annoying daughter who bugs me about what I wear. So, before you come to my dream, go to hers and tell her to stop it, would you? Please? Thanks.
I know you, you know most of the stuff that's been happening right? Cause you are there and we cant see you but you can see us and all that stuff. So, do you read my mind? Cause if you do than I wont have to write everything here. Anyways, I miss you. I just wish I have a way to have you back all over again. Its just not fair that you are gone. :( Oh, btw, ignore what your "lovely" son says about you, okay? No hard feelings. He was just angry at you for what you did last time.
sigh. Its been one month so fast. I miss my grandpa and I don't know what do to. Wheres that man who always said be yourself and don't care what others think about. Not even your mum. Wheres that man who said to me once I love you and I'm not going anywhere, without you telling me where to go. Wheres that man who said he wants to meet my best friends, one day. Where that man who said I'm going to meet your boyfriend before I go see your grandma. Wheres that man who always buys chocolates when he comes to see me. Wheres that man who told me dating same sex is not wrong. Where that man who takes on bus ride to town. Wheres that man who said he will me my 1st model when I get an DSLR? Where? Where? Where? Not a day pass by I don't think about you, grandpa. NOT A DAY. sigh. )':
There was once, my grandpa said to play a nice English song and I played him Say Anything by Kate Voegele. And he was like whats the lyrics. And that day, we both sat infont of the computer and sang that song fully. He got carried away with that song and he missed his show on television.
We had the best and nothing less but the second we fell out of step, you up and left. Say your the mess. Say it's a shame. Why cant you at least pretend. Say I should leave, you're over me. Say something, say anything. Anything, say anything, please. What happened to, the plans we made and that contagious smile upon your face. It's all begun to fade. You used to be so careful with me, making sure that we would always be each others missing piece. This is our chance and your all I have. Don't let me slip through your hands. You know I miss you.
Even he picked a song that it meant something. Things really do happen for a reason I guess.
p/s : Grandpa, don't forget to take care of Mabel. Please. She is important to me. Like how you are to me.
No comments:
Post a Comment