Accept The Pain.

I just wanna sit and stare at you. I don't wanna talk about it and I don't want a conversation. I just wanna cry in front of you. You're the only one I'd be with till the end. I need to know where to start. I need to know what this means. The drugs began to peak and a smile of joy arrives in me. You just want to hurt me and leave me desperate. The times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth. All hope I had becomes surreal. Blue skies turning gray like my love. You say, you care for me but hide it well.

Who is gonna save you when I'm gone? I been asking this to myself . I couldn't fall asleep last night. Thinking of everything. The past, the present and the worse, the future. Its really scary when every seems getting to close to you. I just wish time would slow down. Growing up too fast is not fun. I don't want to be apart from my best friends. I'm not going to like next year. Everything seems to be fading away very fast.

Once again i'm falling to my knees. There's nothing left. Here we are pretending we're ok. You have been good to me. You've kept your word and got me through these years. You'll be there for me but will I be there for you?