You're In Ruins.

I'm going to do what Mabel said. But with lyrics. I just don't like using my own words.


I get carried away with every day and every fantasy. So much to say but no words to convey. The loneliness building with each passing day but I’m getting used to it, you have to get used to it. I’ll destroy this useless heart. I’ll fuck it up so it’ll never beat again not just for me but for anyone. How does the story end if I can't let go and I can't pretend. Time pass away and I just can't get you off my mind. Nobody knows cause I hide it inside but I keep on searching but i can't find. Night after night I hear myself say why can't this feeling just fade away. How will I know?

I'll be by your side wherever you fall in the dead of night. Whenever you call and please don't fight cause these hands that are holding you. I just don't want to waste another day and I'm trying to make things right but you shove it in my face and all those things you've done to me I can't erase. I can't keep this inside. I should have known to walk away and disappear without a trace. Instead I stood there waiting hoping you would come around but you always found a way to let me down.

What I ask myself the today :-

Did someone break your heart today?
What to do now?
Why Jean didnt reply?
Should I go for CF tomorrow?
Where the hell is my brother?
Any homeworks to do?
Should I study today?
What are you doing now?
Should I get Green Day Album?
Why are you with HIM!?!?! ewww!!

Alot more I ask but cant seem to remember alot. I got to go now. Byee! xoxo!