Its going to be 12am soon and I'm still up thinking about my problems. Its been in my head for awhile now and I don't know what I should do. I really hate it. =/ I'm in serious shit. I feel totally lost. I keep asking myself and wondering how. All the things you said are runnin' through my head everyday. I close my eyes when I get too sad and I think thoughts that I know are bad. Sometimes, I close my eyes and I count to ten hope it's over when I open them. Hope my mom and I hope my dad will figure out why they get so mad. Hear them scream, I hear them fight. They say bad words that make me wanna cry and I close my eyes when I go to bed and I dream of angels who make me smile. I feel better when I hear them say everything will be wonderful someday. Promises mean everything when you're little and the world's so big but I just don't understand how you can smile with all those tears in your eyes and tell me everything is wonderful now. I go to school and I run and play and I tell the kids that it's all okay and I laugh aloud so my friends won't know and when the bell rings I just don't wanna go home. Go to my room and I close my eyes make believe that I have a new life cause I don't believe you when you say everything will be wonderful someday and I don't wanna hear you say that I will understand someday.
just don't wanna go home.
just don't wanna go home.
want to move out after 18 or 21
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