The Words of A Lullaby.

I just can't stop thinking of you.

I didn't wanna wake up today cause I knew today is going to be same like everyday other day, even if it's one four or two six is the same, it wont change and I'm sick of it. Somebody help me. I'm out of my mind. Save me. Without you I don't know what I'd do. I can never, ever live a day without you. You're all I need. Sounds crazy and I've gone crazy. You heartless right now. Not even a reply ? That hurts but I'm taking it in and trying to forget that I did that but the thing is I just can't pull myself away cause I feel like I'm under a spell that I can't break. Who's fault is that ? Because I don't know the answer. I'm trying and trying to walk away but I know this thing ain't going away. So, don't tell me if I'm dying cause I don't know want to know cause that's what I'm hoping for. OMG! I really out of my stupid mind. My true love, my whole heart, please don't throw that away, please don't walk away and, please tell me you'll stay!*I know you wont stay* This is not fair, never will be fair. I'm such an ***hole. Most of the night I ended up crying myself to sleep and wondering where did I go wrong to lose you and till now I can't find an answer to that question. How does it feel when a friend tries to stab you right in the face ? I'm losing faith in everything I thought I hoped I knew. I'm feel so helpless and hopeless. One four sucked, but I love all the hugs I got. Joy gave be the biggest hug of all and she tried carrying but I refuse and I'm sorry about that Joy. Kim thanks for the card that you made for me. I really love it! Qian Nee and Aila thanks for begin my gfs'.

don't go please.

Yes, I don't want to.


it's right there.


Play it out LOUD!


It's like my life, the colours are fading.


flowers are dying but I'm still alive.


around and around I still get nothing.


but I can't cause it hard to breathe when you are not next to me.


I'm still waiting.


while the music is ON.


please stay.


I can't watch you walk away out of my life.

when will you come in my life too make it brighter?

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark, to be kicked when you're down, to feel like you've been pushed around, to be on the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you. No you don't know what it's like to be like me. I'm stuck inside a world that I hate. I'm sick of everyone around,with their big fake smiles and stupid lies,while deep inside I'm bleeding.I wanna be somebody else. I'm sick of feeling so left out. I'm desperate to find something more.

Before my life is over. I feel like breaking down. I feel out of place like somehow I just don't belong and no one understands me.

One still in love while the other ones leaving and when a heart breaks no it don't break even.
no wise words gonna stop the bleeding

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you.